miguelc
December 26th, 2014, 10:24 PM
Sorry this post is so long. Thanks to any all who take the time to read it.
We all have that "what if" person. You know, that person that you'll always wonder "what if". What if things were different? What if I did things differently? What if we were together today? Well, I dated my "what if" girl and I messed it up. I wanted to send her a Christmas message telling her how I feel but it's too late it's December 26th. I need your opinions on what I was going to say.
A little background:
We were best friends. She always came to talk to me when she needed someone and I did the same. And slowly but surely we fell for each other. After a camp we broke up with our gf/bf and started dating. Everything was going well until her grandma died. She wanted space but I did nothing but smother her trying to cheer her up. That's how I messed everything up. First day at college we broke up. A week later I found out she went back to her ex bf and I realized he was the one there for her when she needed him while I was stuck 3 hours away. Anyway, every single day I think about her and wonder what if I had done things differently. Now we barely talk and it's nothing more than the occasional pleasantries on the holidays. I know that she's moved on but no matter what I do I can't.
This is what I was going to say...
"You and I were best friends and in hindsight we should've stayed that way. You always came too me when you needed me and I to you. We talked about everything, our problems, our lives, we would stay up half the night talking and that was the best part of my day, talking to you. I'm sorry for how I was when your grandma died, you needed space and all i did was smother you. I'll regret that for the rest of my life because I lost you. I'm not upset because I lost you as my girlfriend, I'm upset because I lost my best friend in the world. I lost you out of my life. And I know that things can never go back to what they used to be.
Things are going well with my girlfriend, and I know things will work out for the best but just let me say, without hope or agenda, just because it's Christmas. I love you...and I will always love you. Despite all your flaws, your stubbornness, and your "complicatedness", to me, you're perfect. I'm happy that you're happy with Dylan, God knows all I've ever wanted is for you to be happy. But dammit, what if? That's the question that will always haunt me.... Merry Christmas Brodi."
What do you think of it? Too sappy? Too forward? General opinions? Should I have sent it?
Thanks everyone.
We all have that "what if" person. You know, that person that you'll always wonder "what if". What if things were different? What if I did things differently? What if we were together today? Well, I dated my "what if" girl and I messed it up. I wanted to send her a Christmas message telling her how I feel but it's too late it's December 26th. I need your opinions on what I was going to say.
A little background:
We were best friends. She always came to talk to me when she needed someone and I did the same. And slowly but surely we fell for each other. After a camp we broke up with our gf/bf and started dating. Everything was going well until her grandma died. She wanted space but I did nothing but smother her trying to cheer her up. That's how I messed everything up. First day at college we broke up. A week later I found out she went back to her ex bf and I realized he was the one there for her when she needed him while I was stuck 3 hours away. Anyway, every single day I think about her and wonder what if I had done things differently. Now we barely talk and it's nothing more than the occasional pleasantries on the holidays. I know that she's moved on but no matter what I do I can't.
This is what I was going to say...
"You and I were best friends and in hindsight we should've stayed that way. You always came too me when you needed me and I to you. We talked about everything, our problems, our lives, we would stay up half the night talking and that was the best part of my day, talking to you. I'm sorry for how I was when your grandma died, you needed space and all i did was smother you. I'll regret that for the rest of my life because I lost you. I'm not upset because I lost you as my girlfriend, I'm upset because I lost my best friend in the world. I lost you out of my life. And I know that things can never go back to what they used to be.
Things are going well with my girlfriend, and I know things will work out for the best but just let me say, without hope or agenda, just because it's Christmas. I love you...and I will always love you. Despite all your flaws, your stubbornness, and your "complicatedness", to me, you're perfect. I'm happy that you're happy with Dylan, God knows all I've ever wanted is for you to be happy. But dammit, what if? That's the question that will always haunt me.... Merry Christmas Brodi."
What do you think of it? Too sappy? Too forward? General opinions? Should I have sent it?
Thanks everyone.