I hate being a burden

[Axw_JD]

I just need to die and stop being a problem to everyone. I know I have 1 best friend, the only friend I have ever had, I know he loves me to bits but I just can't do this to him, I can't be always bothering him with my negativity and sadness, he deserves better...

I am so sad, and tired and can't see any other way out, but I'm still a bit scaredof death... If only I could get over that, I could stop existing and stop being in everyone's way...

[James Dean]

Aww, calm down it's fine. Let's talk for a bit. :)

I understand your depression, just overcome it and become the champion of it. Depression is the demon that wants you to lose and give up. It is everything ignorant in the world that causes you to become isolated and alone. Ignore that and shine like the star that you are. Be brave about yourself, it's gonna be fine buddy.

You don't know what life has in store for you yet. Be different and unique. Ignore haters at all costs and focus on you. Keep your friendship with him, I'm sure he is a great person and is there for you at tough times. In addition, open yourself up to new people and relationships and environments. Take up learning a new language, doing something new. Again, people are gonna be rude and try to shame you, don't let that happen. Nobody is perfect in this world, try to educate yourself on things you don't know.

I want you to be successful and I would hate for you to feel in turmoil all the time. I have faith in you now, from a west coast person to another west coast person, big hug. http://www.co8.org/forum/images/smilies/icon_hug.gif

We are always here for you. :)

[Whight]

You shouldn't die. If people like you, chances are you'll do more harm than good.
Besides, why do you think you're a burden? I'm certain you have quite a few good qualities about yourself that you're just unaware of.

Let's help you find them :)

[Meh Guy]

Hey, coming from someone who has been the suicidal friend and the voice of reason in a friendship, you're not a burden. I used to think this about my best friend and very nearly killed myself. What made me stop was him crying because he found out about it. You'll make his life worse, much worse than anything you think you're doing to him. Trust me, I had to switch roles with him many times. He doesn't bother me at all. Ever. I know how it feels. And so does your friend. That's what besties are for :)

[Tesserax]

Man, all I can say is just don't. You say you have a best friend and you feel like you're a burden to him? If he's stuck around long enough to be your best friend, he doesn't care, and he looks over anything bad about you. Killing yourself will only be more of a burden, with grief, the loss of a best friend, a person to talk to, it will kill him to know that he might have been able to do something. I have some advice for you, and it might be hard, but ask him if you're a burden to him, it can only end one of two ways, either he says you're not and you guys can have a chat about it, or he says you are, and then you know that he's an asshole that's been lying to you the whole time (the first one is about a 99.999999999% chance to happen). I wish you the best of luck with your future, and I hope you feel better with time to come. Have a chat with your best friend more, it'll help slowly, little by little but it will add up, trust me. Peace, and get better :)