Sundays are the worst

[Lovelife090994]

Out of all the days of week Sundays are the worst for me. My mother always reprimands me and I have next to no peace. Today was Yule and I couldn't even savor its morning. I was forced to go to church again. My mom blackmailed me to evict me, slap me, and get rid of my sweet little dog, Angel. I told her my Constitutional rights state I have freedom of religion and that at my age I should be allowed to not go to church. She said that is null and void under her roof. I didn't ask to be stuck at home after I couldn't afford college. She threatened to let me starve. I want to scream. I mentioned how God would never force others to him, and has such a high body count in killings. Mom said that doesn't matter because he can do that, he's the Creator she says... That's it, she's delusional, she's fanatical. Her church is so religious and strict Black Christian which I hate. This is every Sunday and even through the week.

Will I ever get peace? I am racing to get ever scholarship possible to get the Hell out of this. And what's worse? She's converting her fiance! This is insane. If she found out I was pagan I'm doomed. You will hear me in the news, "gay pagan Black man killed by psycho religious mother".
My beliefs and vows and personal promises keep me from wishing harm to another human being to death but by the Goddess this is getting frightening.

Thanks for reading. Blessed be

[Drummer Ben]

I know you already know this but you have two options. Go to church or starve on the streets. You know, maybe as her if you could go to a different church on your own and show her your going to one. Different Christian churches have many different beliefs.

I tell you I myself am a Christian. I believe Jesus Christ though never left earth. He is here in energy and we can tap into that energy. No man is going to come out of the sky and fix all our problems. God gives us freedom of choice and we have a choice. Do we want to destroy this planet with war & pollution or change folks. We can only save this earth and I truly believe that. That is why I don't like going to Christian churches either because they all say, Jesus will someday return. He is right in front of you giving us all the power we need to make the change. So God is an energy to me. I believe in dark energy and pure energy. Pure is stronger than dark. You feel? Sorry for rambling but just wanted to share with you the type of Christian I am.

[Dortmund]

We live in the 21st Century, we should all have a choice as to whether we accept religion or not and it simply shouldn't be forced upon a person to accept the beliefs on Christianity.
However though, for now, there's not an awful lot you seem to be able to do.

I agree, what your mother is doing isn't right but until you get that scholarship or a job that enable you to get out of your house it seems like you have little alternative but to please her and continue attending. It seems bad but it's for the best of your well-being at the moment.

Once you're able to leave, you'll be more than welcome to make your own decisions, which is what everyone deserves to do. To force a religion upon someone is simply wrong.

[phuckphace]

here is some advice that you probably won't want to hear, but it helped me and there's a (small) chance that it might help you too.

that advice is to deal with it. you don't have to accept it, or believe it, or like it, or even think about it. treat your mother with the respect that we afford to our mothers even when we dislike/hate the things they do and say. it will get better someday, but some of that effort has to come from you.

think about how deeply you hold your own faith, and then try to picture it from your mother's perspective. for her, raised in a strict Christian environment from birth, her faith and way of life is all that she knows. it's not as though she found Jesus last year after someone handed her a card with John 3:16 on it. nurture is, for most people, immutable and permanent, almost to the same degree as nature. by openly challenging your mother's faith, you are attacking her (from her perspective.) her faith is as much a part of her as her physical body, and you shouldn't ever forget that.

a few years ago after I renounced religion and became an agnostic, I tried (very gently) to approach my mom with my doubts and criticisms of Christianity, but instead of a meaningful discussion as I had hoped, she would yank her neck back into her shell and become incredibly defensive and evasive, and it would always end in her crying and warning me about "the doubts that Satan plants in our minds." I can only imagine how she would have reacted had I admitted to her that I'm no longer a Christian. it would probably kill her.

if I were a different kind of person, I would have already openly renounced religion to my parents years ago, and told them to their faces that I didn't believe anything in the Bible beyond what archaeology has proven. I haven't and I won't though, regardless of what would happen to me personally. the pain it would cause my mom and dad is unimaginable, after all those times they saw me as a little kid, genuinely involved in Bible pageants and other church events, and how happy it made them that I was following their lead. they know me as a Christian, so I'll remain a Christian in their eyes until they pass away.

el fin.

[Lovelife090994]

I know you already know this but you have two options. Go to church or starve on the streets. You know, maybe as her if you could go to a different church on your own and show her your going to one. Different Christian churches have many different beliefs.

I tell you I myself am a Christian. I believe Jesus Christ though never left earth. He is here in energy and we can tap into that energy. No man is going to come out of the sky and fix all our problems. God gives us freedom of choice and we have a choice. Do we want to destroy this planet with war & pollution or change folks. We can only save this earth and I truly believe that. That is why I don't like going to Christian churches either because they all say, Jesus will someday return. He is right in front of you giving us all the power we need to make the change. So God is an energy to me. I believe in dark energy and pure energy. Pure is stronger than dark. You feel? Sorry for rambling but just wanted to share with you the type of Christian I am.

We live in the 21st Century, we should all have a choice as to whether we accept religion or not and it simply shouldn't be forced upon a person to accept the beliefs on Christianity.
However though, for now, there's not an awful lot you seem to be able to do.

I agree, what your mother is doing isn't right but until you get that scholarship or a job that enable you to get out of your house it seems like you have little alternative but to please her and continue attending. It seems bad but it's for the best of your well-being at the moment.

Once you're able to leave, you'll be more than welcome to make your own decisions, which is what everyone deserves to do. To force a religion upon someone is simply wrong.

here is some advice that you probably won't want to hear, but it helped me and there's a (small) chance that it might help you too.

that advice is to deal with it. you don't have to accept it, or believe it, or like it, or even think about it. treat your mother with the respect that we afford to our mothers even when we dislike/hate the things they do and say. it will get better someday, but some of that effort has to come from you.

think about how deeply you hold your own faith, and then try to picture it from your mother's perspective. for her, raised in a strict Christian environment from birth, her faith and way of life is all that she knows. it's not as though she found Jesus last year after someone handed her a card with John 3:16 on it. nurture is, for most people, immutable and permanent, almost to the same degree as nature. by openly challenging your mother's faith, you are attacking her (from her perspective.) her faith is as much a part of her as her physical body, and you shouldn't ever forget that.

a few years ago after I renounced religion and became an agnostic, I tried (very gently) to approach my mom with my doubts and criticisms of Christianity, but instead of a meaningful discussion as I had hoped, she would yank her neck back into her shell and become incredibly defensive and evasive, and it would always end in her crying and warning me about "the doubts that Satan plants in our minds." I can only imagine how she would have reacted had I admitted to her that I'm no longer a Christian. it would probably kill her.

if I were a different kind of person, I would have already openly renounced religion to my parents years ago, and told them to their faces that I didn't believe anything in the Bible beyond what archaeology has proven. I haven't and I won't though, regardless of what would happen to me personally. the pain it would cause my mom and dad is unimaginable, after all those times they saw me as a little kid, genuinely involved in Bible pageants and other church events, and how happy it made them that I was following their lead. they know me as a Christian, so I'll remain a Christian in their eyes until they pass away.

el fin.


Thank you so much for all the replies. I'll just try my hardest to live with it for now. I won't post about this again.