epiphanylove
December 21st, 2014, 10:38 AM
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Hello to all. For the past couple of weeks, I've been dealing with an issue. I had a best friend who transferred schools. We always fought, and I treated them horribly at times and vise versa. But that doesn't change the hurt I'm going through right now. You see, when said person transferred schools, their parents barred them from seeing me. That didn't stop us from talking and still being close friends until one day, they full on stopped replying to my messages. That happened shortly after Thanksgiving. It became the same old schlock, me trying but them not putting in the effort. I made a Facebook status about me wanting to leave the area I'm in, that I couldn't wait to leave. Their response? "See ya.". That broke my heart.
What broke my heart even more was when I learned that they were messaging a close online friend of mine, yet still ignoring my messages. It all came to a head when they messaged me saying that I told a counselor about a private situation that happened and certain authorities got involved. I never said anything. Long story short, I tried to explain what happened the next day, that I didn't say anything .They replied by blocking me. It's been two-three weeks since then, I've lost track of the time. But it hurts like hell. I think about it everyday. Not a day goes by when I don't think of what happened, how we spent every weekend together, how we were the only friends who were really close. Don't get me wrong, I'm fucking pissed at them. I'm pissed for them leaving.
I'm socially awkward as fuck with people. I just don't get along with others at the school I'm at, which is very tiny and everyone's known everyone for years. Because of past bullying incidents, I'm afraid to really talk to people. That's a different story for a different post. I miss them. I really do. I wish they never left, but they're showing their true colors by leaving. I miss them to death. Even if I did do what they said I did, that still doesn't mean that they should do this to me. It's made a lot of my pre-existing issues with self confidence even worse.
I need help before I crack.
Hello to all. For the past couple of weeks, I've been dealing with an issue. I had a best friend who transferred schools. We always fought, and I treated them horribly at times and vise versa. But that doesn't change the hurt I'm going through right now. You see, when said person transferred schools, their parents barred them from seeing me. That didn't stop us from talking and still being close friends until one day, they full on stopped replying to my messages. That happened shortly after Thanksgiving. It became the same old schlock, me trying but them not putting in the effort. I made a Facebook status about me wanting to leave the area I'm in, that I couldn't wait to leave. Their response? "See ya.". That broke my heart.
What broke my heart even more was when I learned that they were messaging a close online friend of mine, yet still ignoring my messages. It all came to a head when they messaged me saying that I told a counselor about a private situation that happened and certain authorities got involved. I never said anything. Long story short, I tried to explain what happened the next day, that I didn't say anything .They replied by blocking me. It's been two-three weeks since then, I've lost track of the time. But it hurts like hell. I think about it everyday. Not a day goes by when I don't think of what happened, how we spent every weekend together, how we were the only friends who were really close. Don't get me wrong, I'm fucking pissed at them. I'm pissed for them leaving.
I'm socially awkward as fuck with people. I just don't get along with others at the school I'm at, which is very tiny and everyone's known everyone for years. Because of past bullying incidents, I'm afraid to really talk to people. That's a different story for a different post. I miss them. I really do. I wish they never left, but they're showing their true colors by leaving. I miss them to death. Even if I did do what they said I did, that still doesn't mean that they should do this to me. It's made a lot of my pre-existing issues with self confidence even worse.
I need help before I crack.