im a psycho. -not suitable for psychos-

[Broken Toy]

IM a complete fucking psycho.

I once self harmed then put the blade in my mouth so i didn't forget it, i leave blades lying around a lot, and it cut my tongue. Fair enough, im stupid.

But now i do it on purpose because i like it. It bleeds a lot and i need to see a lot of blood. It doesn't even hurt that much either.
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Yeah someone help me there, i don't like the pain of cutting. IM not cutting because im numb or anything, like it fucking hurts. I just like the blood, and i don't like the soreness afterwards (i cut on my hip which hurts like a birch to move.)

Yeah don't know if i can get advice but its a story so....

[Desuetude]

So you cut to see the blood? If that's the case maybe try buying a red marker or paint? You could even get into that theatrical makeup stuff to make realistic gashes on the skin. Its just stuff to replace it because honestly cutting solely to see the blood isn't beneficial at all (whereas self harm usually starts off being a productive process and its benefits deterioroate and it becomes an addiction) so you should seriously attempt to stop and get rid of the blades you have so you're not tempted to cut.

I mean personally I don't think its uncommon to enjoy the blood side of self harm so don't think you're on your own there but there are definitely ways of getting around that aspect of cutting that I really urge you to look into and try out because the last thing you want is to get an infection from a cut that was created because you liked to see the blood for a couple minutes/hours.

[Broken Toy]

I like your ideas and ill try them, only problem is i cant get rid of my blades because i use anything. Ive cut with pieces of glass after somethings broke in my house before, im not exactly the smartest of people in that sense

[Abhorrence]

I used to cut my tongue too. I even swallowed razor blades a few times, obviously I had to go to the hospital for this.

[rileyedens]

well a psycho (psychopath) is someone who cannot feel empathy or compation towards others. often they are abusive towards animals, so unless you have no remorse/emotions towards others and like to torcher and kill things in your free time, your not a psycho. however you do have a serious issue with self harm, but that doesn't make you crazy at all!! i would suggest talking to your doctor because even tho your not crazy, you need a better way to deal with these thoughts and behaviors. if you ever need to talk or aything just let me know!!:)