Bi-curious, but have difficulty following through

[TheRedViper]

So for a while now I've been feeling curious and experimental in my sexuality. 98% of the time I'm completely straight, but whenever I get really horny, I have a strong urge to have sex with guys (only guys my own age though). The urge is so strong that if a guy my own age was in the same room with me, I'd be having sex with him in a second. I'll also sometimes masturbate to gay porn, which I've found I sort of enjoy more than regular porn now.

However, the problem is as soon as I cum I no longer feel any desire or urge towards guys in the slightest. I'm completely back to my hetero mind-set, and do not even think about gay sex anymore. This has happened on many occasions, such as when I'll meet a guy online, we'll become friends on Skype, and then jerk off together on cam. However, the second I cum I feel a huge regret for what I've done, and I quickly leave the chat, and this may sound ridiculous, but I also sometimes block that person, delete them as my friend and delete the Skype app. This has happened on a few occasions. I always end up getting the app back to jerk off with other guys... and so the cycle repeats haha.

And a couple of times I've got to talking with some of the guys, and we've agreed to meet up at some point to have sex, and I'd be all horny and excited about it, and really eager to do it, but then as expected as soon as I cum all desire and urge is gone, and I never meet with them (I've never actually made a set time and date for it, so I'm not standing them up). This is a massive problem for me, because when I'm horny there's nothing I want to do more than... well, a guy. But I just know if I go through with it, and when I cum when I'm with him, I'll want to leave as soon as it happens. I'll just feel so awkward and weird otherwise.

Thanks for reading, and any comments would be appreciated.

[Zachary G]

what you are feeling is not uncommon for most straight to bisexual guys, it isnt the romantic/emotional aspect of the guy on guy thing as much as it is a purely physical feeling for you. the guilt feelings you have could be related to the thought that you are having closeted sexual feelings for another male and you could be afraid that someone might find out and react negatively towards you because of it? I dont know, I think tha part of it you will have to look deep inside to answer,but thats just my 2 cents.

[Hudor]

I know what you're saying and i have been like that. Then i slowly grew more and more attracted towards guys to the point the attraction didn't go even after the horniness had left. There came a permanence to it and that's when i realized i am bi.
Maybe it's just a phase? You'll have to look into yourself for the answers and give it time.

[SethfromMI]

could be just a phase or just curious. there is a title to when you are just sexually attracted to someone without the emotional attachment. I am not exactly sure what it is called

[James Dean]

All I can suggest is that you do what you're currently doing which is to find out who you are and accept yourself. You are attracted to guys sometimes, it's fine. Nothing wrong with experimenting and exploring new things. As long as you stay safe and don't hurt yourself, I have no problem with you going out to explore what exactly you want. Don't give into ignorant people, listen to your heart. Wishing you the best, as someone who deals with the same types of shit with sexuality. It's ok. :)

[Abhorrence]

When you orgasm you can sometimes experience a sort of low mood because all of the euphoria of the time has gone and this can sometimes cause guilt towards what you have done due to it not being of your own mind's standards. Obviously when you are horny you are not thinking as normal, you are only thinking of sex and when this has gone in an instant you go back to your normal thinking.

[Pablo]

I have the same thing happen to me as well. I'm not sure what to tell you as I'm still trying to figure it out myself.