I'm an idiot.

[wonderland]

I've messed up.

Today my mother asked me to look out some ibuprofen for her headache. We keep all our medicine in a certain box and it's mainly filled with allergy tablets and bandages and other shit so I had to rummage around to try and find it. While looking I found a whole box of my old antidepressants - the same ones that I had attempted suicide with before and thought my parents had thrown out - and I guess it triggered me.

I should have left them or thrown them out - but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I ended up grabbing the whole box and taking it through to my room and now it's sitting next to me.

I've been somewhat able to control my suicidal thoughts for the last few months and I thought that I was better - but now my thoughts are just as strong as they were before.

I don't know what to do.

[Plane And Simple]

Hold on right there. Put them away, you know life will get better. Give it time and keep it up, you were doing awesome and you can keep at it.

[SethfromMI]

take a deep breathe and throw them away. or have a friend who will take them out of the house for you so you won't have access to them

you are not an idiot. you are strong and you can do this

[RavleIncarnate]

Burn them. Then tell me what color the flame was. Or, gut them and drown them in water. Then throw the water in the toilet along with the capsules. Just, don't take them near your mouth. To all bad things must come an end.

[Horatio Nelson]

You can overcome this. Don't give in to those bad memories and emotions. Flush them down the toilet. You are strong.

[Uranus]

Do not take those pills! We all go through tough times where we just want to give into the things that will make the situation even worse. You can overcome the situation if you just take one small step by simply throwing those away, and keep moving forward with your life.