nowherewego
December 12th, 2014, 12:26 PM
Hi everyone! :)
I need your opinion and advice if possible I'm in senior year of high school. I am shy and introvert. I have no friends, I had some back in middle and primary school, I also was the "fulfilling friend" to someone all middle school long. There are only three people in my class whom I talk to quite regularly and openly. We laugh, we talk, we hang out together only at school. Otherwise, the rest of the class likes me. They tell me I'm nice, kind and intelligent. As I laugh pretty easily, they often come at me to tell me jokes. When they talk a bit with me, I don't really know how to answer but I still do. But I don't feel like they want to hang with me. I doubt they're waiting for me to come to them as they know how shy I am, I've known them for more than a year now. I am not so well integrated to the class. Last time we were discussing the fact why one of our classmate wasn't like by the entire class, they said she was the only one not integrated. I am more than her, yes, but I'm still very very shy talking to all of the other people in my class. Can't they see? Each week, when asking about what we've done during the weekend I always say nothing. Because I don't do anything on weekends. I have no friends to go out with! Don't they understand? I have an example of feeling rejected: me and two of my friends (don't know if I should call them that still) we discussing eating plans. One said she was going to eat at a guy's home and the other said she was going to eat outside with another guy. I heard them because I was next to one of her. I felt pretty bad: ending up alone as usual. I just feel like a ghost in class by all of the other people. if they need me they'll talk to me, if they're in a good mood they'll tell me a good joke, otherwise they ignore me. I'm never the one people want to have serious conversations with. These I understand I should make the first step but I feel worthless. I know I've often been alone, but it doesn't mean I enjoy it. I remain unnoticed. I've had a rough month, feeling very lonely and overwhelmed by my family problems (no one to talk about it with) , but no one noticed that I'm in total despair. I wish I was able to break own in front of them all so that they would finally see my pain. I'm so used to answering "I'm fine thanks and you?" but people don't care. Don't they see I'm hiding so much behind my constant laughters in class? I am so tired, I feel so unhappy.
Does anyone else feel that way? What should I do?
I am sorry for posting such a long thread. I'm new on here so I apologize if I did anything wrong.
I need your opinion and advice if possible I'm in senior year of high school. I am shy and introvert. I have no friends, I had some back in middle and primary school, I also was the "fulfilling friend" to someone all middle school long. There are only three people in my class whom I talk to quite regularly and openly. We laugh, we talk, we hang out together only at school. Otherwise, the rest of the class likes me. They tell me I'm nice, kind and intelligent. As I laugh pretty easily, they often come at me to tell me jokes. When they talk a bit with me, I don't really know how to answer but I still do. But I don't feel like they want to hang with me. I doubt they're waiting for me to come to them as they know how shy I am, I've known them for more than a year now. I am not so well integrated to the class. Last time we were discussing the fact why one of our classmate wasn't like by the entire class, they said she was the only one not integrated. I am more than her, yes, but I'm still very very shy talking to all of the other people in my class. Can't they see? Each week, when asking about what we've done during the weekend I always say nothing. Because I don't do anything on weekends. I have no friends to go out with! Don't they understand? I have an example of feeling rejected: me and two of my friends (don't know if I should call them that still) we discussing eating plans. One said she was going to eat at a guy's home and the other said she was going to eat outside with another guy. I heard them because I was next to one of her. I felt pretty bad: ending up alone as usual. I just feel like a ghost in class by all of the other people. if they need me they'll talk to me, if they're in a good mood they'll tell me a good joke, otherwise they ignore me. I'm never the one people want to have serious conversations with. These I understand I should make the first step but I feel worthless. I know I've often been alone, but it doesn't mean I enjoy it. I remain unnoticed. I've had a rough month, feeling very lonely and overwhelmed by my family problems (no one to talk about it with) , but no one noticed that I'm in total despair. I wish I was able to break own in front of them all so that they would finally see my pain. I'm so used to answering "I'm fine thanks and you?" but people don't care. Don't they see I'm hiding so much behind my constant laughters in class? I am so tired, I feel so unhappy.
Does anyone else feel that way? What should I do?
I am sorry for posting such a long thread. I'm new on here so I apologize if I did anything wrong.