Broke 4 months free...

[xoraphox]

Last time that I cut was in Jully. I had enough today. Fuck this shit. I broke my 4 months free of cutting. I don't know what I can do... I just want her back so badly.. I fucked up so much.. What can I do?

[maniamsmart]

Last time that I cut was in Jully. I had enough today. Fuck this shit. I broke my 4 months free of cutting. I don't know what I can do... I just want her back so badly.. I fucked up so much.. What can I do?

Explain a bit more, please?

[xoraphox]

There's that girl that I loved sinced i met her and for her it was one day she loves me the other day she doesnt.. Plus she didnt want to go out with anyone so I waited for her.. Till the day I just fucked up.. Said some things i didn't meant to say.. Now she hates me and wants me out of her life.. She was a part of me.. She was the only thing that kept me out of cutting and feeling suicidal.. I don't know what to do anymore..

[maniamsmart]

There's that girl that I loved sinced i met her and for her it was one day she loves me the other day she doesnt.. Plus she didnt want to go out with anyone so I waited for her.. Till the day I just fucked up.. Said some things i didn't meant to say.. Now she hates me and wants me out of her life.. She was a part of me.. She was the only thing that kept me out of cutting and feeling suicidal.. I don't know what to do anymore..

Love is not just simply a switch. She didn't love you. You're hurting yourself by thinking she did.

[xoraphox]

Ok maybe I didn't explain clearly enough.. She did love me, she told me. But then some days she was super mad at me and some other days she was all over me and when I asked her out, she said nshe wasn't ready for a relationship.. And she felt bad because she thought I had depression cuz of her.. now I fucked up but I just can't forget her and I started cutting again

[maniamsmart]

Ok maybe I didn't explain clearly enough.. She did love me, she told me. But then some days she was super mad at me and some other days she was all over me and when I asked her out, she said nshe wasn't ready for a relationship.. And she felt bad because she thought I had depression cuz of her.. now I fucked up but I just can't forget her and I started cutting again

This may come off as inconsiderate, but I don't think either of you know what love is, if you consider her saying she loves you, then getting bipolar on you, and then rejecting you when asking her out. If she was so in love with you, then those things wouldn't be happening. Maybe she liked you, maybe she had an infatuation with you, maybe she thought that dating you could work, but love? I am not too sure about that.

If you would stop thinking that she loved you (which from your explanation of events clearly shows that she didn't "love" you), then maybe you wouldn't have to feel bad.

[xoraphox]

The thing that you don't understand is that we both have depression and we both have social problems and we both are not normal childs. You can't apply the normal rules to depressed kids that have personality disorder

[maniamsmart]

The thing that you don't understand is that we both have depression and we both have social problems and we both are not normal childs. You can't apply the normal rules to depressed kids that have personality disorder

Well you also didn't say that she also was a depression child, sorry. In that case, have you tried expressing your feelings to her, and apologizing

[xoraphox]

Yes I tried... But she was never ready to get in a relationship.. And yes I tried to apologie but she doesnt want to hear a word...

[maniamsmart]

Yes I tried... But she was never ready to get in a relationship.. And yes I tried to apologie but she doesnt want to hear a word...

Damn, sucks then. If she isn't ready then maybe you should just lay low and not talk to her for a while and try again in a month or two and check up on her. People can't stay angry forever.

[xoraphox]

Ok..Thank you :)

[maniamsmart]

Ok..Thank you :)

No problem, glad I could be of some help :)