so much more than cutting

[thatgothgirluknow]

i feel like i need to get this out there but i'm not brave enough to tell anyone but u guys so here it is when i tried to stop cutting a while ago i discovered there's more than one way to self harm i started an eating disorder which i still struggle with but theres more i found so many new ways to self harm bruising my body,burning and head banging where all things that i did and often still do but my latest way is a little more dangerous pill popping i take as much medication as i can without taking enough to overdose often times taking whatever is available tonight i took 5 pain meds when the od rate was 6

[Desuetude]

I'm glad you worked up the courage to share that on VT and although I've not had major problems with taking excess medication it is definitely on the end of the more harmful spectrum of self harm and I encourage people to stop cutting or burning but with pill popping I really urge you to try and stop asap. I know people that have OD'd (yes purposefully but that can still happen to you, even if it's an accident), have had to have their stomach pumped and can now not take any medication, have to be so careful with what they consume and it's so much extra work. With cutting there's a chance of an infection but the possibility of OD'ing is so much worse when you think about the potential outcome.

If you need someone to talk to you are more than welcome to PM me. If you need to vent instead of taking pills then just send me a rant or something because I understand how easy it is to just take a pill and another and another because swallowing a little pill seems less harmful than cutting in some ways but please don't let it become a habbit or addicting. You know how it works with cutting and the same will happen with taking pills. You'll just see nothing wrong with upping the dose, mixing them together and one day it won't be self harm, but suicide. Please try and get off taking the pills. Hide them away or tell a trusted friend to keep an eye on you if they know about your self harm already. Keep smarties or skittles with you instead, I don't know whether that would help but if it's become a habit it might be a start to breaking it.

I'm sorry my advice really isn't based off much first hand experience but only situations I know of/what I assume. I really do hope you decide that you're going to do your best to stop taking them though.