brokeninto2
December 6th, 2014, 01:44 PM
So I'll get to the point there's something wrong with me l8 I have no clue what it is but the symptoms are worrying me kinda, see I've always gotten minor dizzy spells when I just get up or suddenly start running, they weren't even that bad... but now? I cant control it, I will get dizzy out of random(not even doing anything) and literally fall to the ground cause I cant handle it... I'm a fit person but lately in gym I'm tired out easily and I cant do stuff I was able to do 6 months ago. I'm also really really pale, always! I don't know why! I'm so pale that the lightest shade concealer there is to buy is too dark on me. I cant use it anymore cause I can see the difference, and its not just because its winter, Its been like this for a little while now, and in summer I just do not tan, that's that. I burn... but I don't tan. I'm always a sickly pale.. I get headaches crazy easy and doing stuff like walking down my driveway or up the stairs leaves me short of breath. Also another think I've noticed I'm ALWAYS. Cold. Especially my hands and feet, I just cant seem to keep body warmth... I've been getting sick lately and also this strange chest pain pops up, I'll be sitting/standing still, then when I go to move(or breathe in deeply) I pretty much seize up cause I got this strange pain that's kinda.. oh well fuq idk how to explain it, its not along the lines of a sprain type of pain, or a cut type of pain or anything stinging or anything like that, its kinda like say for example a piece of cartilage breaking, and with a kinda needle pain to it.. IUUNO. (wtf..) Idk whats wrong with me or if this is normal(I'm pretty sure it isn't, I wasn't like this before!!)
Anyways I wanted to go to the hospital but my mom wont take me. "my sister got dizzy spells and nothing was wrong with her, your fine."
That's the end of that option, there no changing my moms opinion.
The only option for me where I live and whatnot is someone driving me after school, the only person who could do that for me.. is my boyfriend. But see I do not want to ask him because I always rely on him for a lot anyways and were not on the best terms when it comes to stuff like this, I mean when I told him about my cutting he flat out refused to help me.. so I'm too scared to ask him.
I really don't trust other people. I don't. I just cant bring myself to..
What should I do?
Anyways I wanted to go to the hospital but my mom wont take me. "my sister got dizzy spells and nothing was wrong with her, your fine."
That's the end of that option, there no changing my moms opinion.
The only option for me where I live and whatnot is someone driving me after school, the only person who could do that for me.. is my boyfriend. But see I do not want to ask him because I always rely on him for a lot anyways and were not on the best terms when it comes to stuff like this, I mean when I told him about my cutting he flat out refused to help me.. so I'm too scared to ask him.
I really don't trust other people. I don't. I just cant bring myself to..
What should I do?