I'm lost

[ilikeunicorns]

So ive been on this site once but stopped for personal reasons but im back cause I thought id give it a shot. Im not going to put my whole story in detail here but ever since I broke my year and a month clean, ive been constantly relapsing. I got stressed out and I relapsed on Sunday. I am confident I have exhausted all the alternatives. I have attempted suicide on Monday and I can't think straight anymore. No matter how much I try to distract myself, the negativeness brings my mind back to my urges. I don't know how much longer I could keep doing this. The only thing at this point keeping me from pushing the blades as deep as id like is my friend. She told me that I couldn't cut or she'd never forgive herself. I try my hardest to tell her that it isnt her fault but she wont listen. Im scared to talk to her cause I feel like such a failure cause I self harm every day. I don't know what do to. I dont know where to go. I just need someone to talk things out with

[maniamsmart]

So ive been on this site once but stopped for personal reasons but im back cause I thought id give it a shot. Im not going to put my whole story in detail here but ever since I broke my year and a month clean, ive been constantly relapsing. I got stressed out and I relapsed on Sunday. I am confident I have exhausted all the alternatives. I have attempted suicide on Monday and I can't think straight anymore. No matter how much I try to distract myself, the negativeness brings my mind back to my urges. I don't know how much longer I could keep doing this. The only thing at this point keeping me from pushing the blades as deep as id like is my friend. She told me that I couldn't cut or she'd never forgive herself. I try my hardest to tell her that it isnt her fault but she wont listen. Im scared to talk to her cause I feel like such a failure cause I self harm every day. I don't know what do to. I dont know where to go. I just need someone to talk things out with

You're not a failure at life, you're just having a hard time and going through some of the rough stages of life. Your friend is there to help, and no matter how much you mess up, your friend will always be there for you because she doesn't want you to die or to be hurt. I'd say the best thing right now for you to do is to just be around people that love you and care about you, and one of those people is your friend that you've mentioned. If you want I can talk to you, just send me a PM or just reply to the thread and I'll always reply back.

[ilikeunicorns]

You're not a failure at life, you're just having a hard time and going through some of the rough stages of life. Your friend is there to help, and no matter how much you mess up, your friend will always be there for you because she doesn't want you to die or to be hurt. I'd say the best thing right now for you to do is to just be around people that love you and care about you, and one of those people is your friend that you've mentioned. If you want I can talk to you, just send me a PM or just reply to the thread and I'll always reply back.

Thanks. I really do appreciate my friend its just that she puts a little too much pressure on me sometimes and I worry that whenever I slip up, she takes it kinda hard. But she is one of the reasons im looking for other solutions so that I can't hurt her if thats what my self harming could possibly be doing.

[maniamsmart]

Thanks. I really do appreciate my friend its just that she puts a little too much pressure on me sometimes and I worry that whenever I slip up, she takes it kinda hard. But she is one of the reasons im looking for other solutions so that I can't hurt her if thats what my self harming could possibly be doing.

She takes it hard because she loves and cares about you. Knowing that you aren't hurting yourself will make her happy, so talking to her knowing that you aren't there cutting yourself will make her feel better, and you feel better.

[romes3]

She takes it hard because she loves and cares about you. Knowing that you aren't hurting yourself will make her happy, so talking to her knowing that you aren't there cutting yourself will make her feel better, and you feel better.

I agree, my friend is similar. When I tell him that I'm not cutting he gets happy,

and I feel good about it too.

[Meh Guy]

First off, you aren't a failure at life. Never think that, you are a beautiful human being and a miracle of nature. You're friend is right in trying to help you. You should talk to her, vent, explain, cry, whatever is helpful. When you think of cutting, think of her. Think of all the pain, that it causes both of you, and stop. Call her at that exact moment if you have to. Remember that everyone is here to help, no matter how hard life is.

PM me if you ever want to talk.