Chameleon
November 30th, 2014, 11:49 PM
Hello everybody. I'm 17 and for the past two years I have been questioning my sexuality because of something that occurred to me two years ago. So three years ago, I became really good friends with someone who we'll call John. John and I would always hang out all the time but as the second or third year of our friendship progressed, we slowly began to part ways and came to the point where we rarely hung out. This happened near the end of ninth grade and we didn't really hang out much during the summer. After summer break was over, we returned back to school and would talk from time to time. When he would greet me, he would give me a hug rather than a handshake, which most guy friends I knew didn't do. He would always say he loved me, too, even though it was in a friendly way. This really confused me and I slowly started to gain feelings for him. He was also very nice to me and I loved his sense of humor, which made me like him even more. My whole life I had thought I was straight but he was my first same sex crush, which really confused me because I had crushed on girls growing up. Since our friendship wasn't as strong anymore, I would always try to talk to him but things just didn't feel the same anymore. I slowly started isolating myself from him and was just very sad for a couple of months, which led to me doing bad in school. Over time, I went back on track and was fine with school but I was miserable. For those that want to know, John and I aren't friends anymore. Sorry this is so long. Anyways, I just wanted to know if anyone else who thought they were straight had a first same sex crush. Thanks