ive began cutting i think im addicted, need to talk.

[Grim]

i started about 4 days ago when i grabbed a razor after my gf forced me to promise id never drink when i was older. i promised and basicall m mind was rushing dizzying i felt broken. went into my bathroom grabbed the razor applied some pressure and cut. i didnt think i did at first but then i saw the blood. i immediately felt my troubles go away all i could feel was a numbness and the slight stinging of the small minor cut. the day after i felt stressed again. so i snapped a cd andtried cutting with that. which didnt work. i quickly dismantled a razor and gave myself about 5 cuts. again i felt better. ive continued and in the course of about 4 days ive garnered about 22 cuts on my arm. each time getting a bit bigger and deeper. im afraid. m,y girlfriend asked me about it and i said it was my cat. i dont know what to do anymore. please dont say see a psychiatrist, i frankly cant stand psychiatrists. but i need help, maybe someone to talk to. what should i do?

-LBNF

[King_of_Hearts]

Well, I guess all I can say is first off, calm down. Breathe, play music, play games, play sports, exercise, anything that will calm you down and take your mind off the situation. I've been in your shoes. Try elastics instead of razors. I know, it might not be the same thing, but the sensations are rather close. Elastics can give you a way to sh without doing a lot of damage to yourself. Hold on, you are stronger than this. If you ever need to talk, message me up :) I'm always around to talk to if you need it. Take care.

[Elena_]

Well, I guess all I can say is first off, calm down. Breathe, play music, play games, play sports, exercise, anything that will calm you down and take your mind off the situation. I've been in your shoes. Try elastics instead of razors. I know, it might not be the same thing, but the sensations are rather close. Elastics can give you a way to sh without doing a lot of damage to yourself. Hold on, you are stronger than this. If you ever need to talk, message me up :) I'm always around to talk to if you need it. Take care.

Yeah , I agree with you.
I had been cutting myself 2 months ago , more or less. But know , I got my friends and my family help. They will always support you.
Remember , there are some bad moments in our lifes , but you mustn't give up :)

[Grim]

Yeah , I agree with you.
I had been cutting myself 2 months ago , more or less. But know , I got my friends and my family help. They will always support you.
Remember , there are some bad moments in our lifes , but you mustn't give up :)


thank you but i would never want my family to know. it would probably just freak them out. so i wouldnt ask for theyre help. and also last night i got the urge again, but i resisted it. hopefully i can go today as well without cutting.

-LBNF

[King_of_Hearts]

thank you but i would never want my family to know. it would probably just freak them out. so i wouldnt ask for theyre help. and also last night i got the urge again, but i resisted it. hopefully i can go today as well without cutting.

-LBNF
As much as it may freak them out, you can always trust your family. They want what is best for you, and for you to be happy and safe.
But good job with resisting the urges. It can be very difficult to do at times, but it is worth it to do. Like I said, just grab an elastic that's just laying around and use that instead of a razor. If you are addicted like you say you are, then it is unhealthy and a hell of a lot harder to quit cold turkey.
We are all here to support and talk you through this. We all care for you, and are at your disposal.
Stay Strong, Stay Safe.

[Grim]

As much as it may freak them out, you can always trust your family. They want what is best for you, and for you to be happy and safe.

i could never tell them though. i dont want them to worry and freak out about me. plus theyd ask why i started cutting and thats a long story. a story i feel that not many people would care to hear. ive only told 1 person i know that ive started cutting and thats one of the only people i know i could tell anyone. my whole life just seems to be a clusterfuck right now. nothings going well. :(

[King_of_Hearts]

i could never tell them though. i dont want them to worry and freak out about me. plus theyd ask why i started cutting and thats a long story. a story i feel that not many people would care to hear. ive only told 1 person i know that ive started cutting and thats one of the only people i know i could tell anyone. my whole life just seems to be a clusterfuck right now. nothings going well. :(

I know man, I really do. I didn't even tell my parents willingly. My mom read through my messages because I left my facebook open. I only told a few people. But now it is just one of those things that if someone asks me about I'm open. Trust me dude, it's hard to do, but it feels great to get it out. Even if it is just to one or two people at first. I know shit seems tough right now, but everything gets better man. If you ever need to talk, I'm always kicking around.
Stay Strong, Stay Safe.

[Grim]

I know man, I really do. I didn't even tell my parents willingly. My mom read through my messages because I left my facebook open. I only told a few people. But now it is just one of those things that if someone asks me about I'm open. Trust me dude, it's hard to do, but it feels great to get it out. Even if it is just to one or two people at first. I know shit seems tough right now, but everything gets better man. If you ever need to talk, I'm always kicking around.
Stay Strong, Stay Safe.

thank you, i need truly need someone to talk to soon. ive been stressed and it feels better to be able to talk to people who actually care. maybe someday ill tell my family, but not right now. i just cant. again thank you. i feel a little bit of hope.