I was an idiot. He knows.

[Remora]

In fact, he is reading all the threads related to him this very moment. I'm typing this as he is finding out that he's my crush.

I really don't know what drove me to send him the threads, but he insisted on knowing "why i didn't love <certain person>" so i just said "i'm going to like, die *thread links* " and rapidly turned off Skype. This was less than a minute ago.

I really don't know what to do next. He's probably smart enough to look at my other posts (hopefully my P101 posts have sunk out of range) and he might just stumble upon this very post.

I don't know if i've been "courageous", an idiot or just screwed up big time. But i know i did something wrong. :c

Either he's going to be angry at me for writing about him, or creeped out by the fact, you know... i'm what i am, or worse, he'll go around telling people (although i trust him not to)

I'd still really like to stay friends with him. While i don't know if he's turned me down or not (despite the fact i'm certain he will or punch me in the face or something I DONT KNOW IM JUST 15)

I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep and never wake up again, and i think that's what i'm going to do.

[HUSTLEMAN]

It seems to me that you are overreacting and pessimistic about this situation. He may even be flattered that you are thinking about him so fondly. Think on this though, he may be very interested in you as well, as it seems that he is very interested and bent on finding out what you have said about him. If things do come to worst then I doubt he would sell you out like that thus ending your friendshipbut most likely he may tell you that he's simply not interested and that's that. Of he does see this thread well, hello friend of Floof.

[maniamsmart]

It seems to me that you are overreacting and pessimistic about this situation. He may even be flattered that you are thinking about him so fondly. Think on this though, he may be very interested in you as well, as it seems that he is very interested and bent on finding out what you have said about him. If things do come to worst then I doubt he would sell you out like that thus ending your friendshipbut most likely he may tell you that he's simply not interested and that's that. Of he does see this thread well, hello friend of Floof.

Perfect answer. I agree 100%. He seems interested enough in what you were talking about, hence, he may even be interested in you. And if he is, and he does see this, most guys would be flattered, I know I would. If he isn't interested though, at least you know, and hopefully he is still your friend.

I think you were being courageous and I don't think it was stupid at all. It's a unique way of letting someone know you like them. Could there have been better ways? Of course, but it isn't a terribly stupid mistake.