Esoteric
November 26th, 2014, 09:51 AM
I have been confused for a month now about something, I have autism spectrum disorder, Asperger's syndrome, and also dyspraxia, anyway I hate anyone touching me even family,(my dad and brother it isn't so bad) I cant stand the feel of it.
Anyway, 4 months ago I met a boy the same age as me and I felt comfortable with him, even when he first touched me on my arm, I didn't freak out and jump away, like I would have done usually, and now I love him hugging me and we even kiss each other.
What I'm confused about is does this mean this is a relationship? a gay one?
If it happened to have been a girl I met and felt comfortable with it might have been the same.
I don't feel any sexual feelings for him, but I don't for anyone, male or female its like that part of me does not exist and he has never put pressure on me to do anything else and he is gay, he calls me his boyfriend and I call him the same.
Is this even a relationship? if nothing sexual happens apart from hugs and kissing does that still mean I am in a relationship with him?
I've never wanted to have a relationship and never thought id be able to either and a month ago I started to think about what this means.
And also the fact its another male does it mean that its a gay relationship and that I'm gay but have never known, even though I don't have sexual feelings.
I'm not even sure this makes any sense because it does not to me, I haven't got anyone I can talk to about it and I hoped someone here might understand me or even have felt like this.
Wasn't sure if this should be in the sexuality part of the forums, I'm not scared or worried about it, and I don't care that its a boy, I don't want it to stop because he's the only person in the world that I feel ok touching and hugging me, but I don't understand if it means I'm in a relationship, and should I even be calling him my boyfriend? :confused:
I think I may have made myself look very stupid but I had to say it to someone, and see if anyone can help me to make sense of it.
Anyway, 4 months ago I met a boy the same age as me and I felt comfortable with him, even when he first touched me on my arm, I didn't freak out and jump away, like I would have done usually, and now I love him hugging me and we even kiss each other.
What I'm confused about is does this mean this is a relationship? a gay one?
If it happened to have been a girl I met and felt comfortable with it might have been the same.
I don't feel any sexual feelings for him, but I don't for anyone, male or female its like that part of me does not exist and he has never put pressure on me to do anything else and he is gay, he calls me his boyfriend and I call him the same.
Is this even a relationship? if nothing sexual happens apart from hugs and kissing does that still mean I am in a relationship with him?
I've never wanted to have a relationship and never thought id be able to either and a month ago I started to think about what this means.
And also the fact its another male does it mean that its a gay relationship and that I'm gay but have never known, even though I don't have sexual feelings.
I'm not even sure this makes any sense because it does not to me, I haven't got anyone I can talk to about it and I hoped someone here might understand me or even have felt like this.
Wasn't sure if this should be in the sexuality part of the forums, I'm not scared or worried about it, and I don't care that its a boy, I don't want it to stop because he's the only person in the world that I feel ok touching and hugging me, but I don't understand if it means I'm in a relationship, and should I even be calling him my boyfriend? :confused:
I think I may have made myself look very stupid but I had to say it to someone, and see if anyone can help me to make sense of it.