Confused? I'm not sure what's going on

[cra1g]

Ok so I have watched gay porn for about 4 years. I hardly ever watch straight porn, it just doesn't turn me on like gay porn does. I have had a couple sexual encounters with guys and I liked it but I felt disgusted about it later. I have been in a relationship with my girlfriend for a year and a half and we have had sex. I love her and I love sex with her, even more so because I don't feel disgusted or guilty afterwards. But I still watch and jack off to gay porn. And when I do, as soon as I'm done I get grossed out with myself. I'm slightly attracted to guys but they have to be muscled and have a decent face. That might make me sound like a jerk but it's the truth. And my girlfriend turns me on more than any guy. I also don't think I could have a romantic relationship with a guy, just sexual. I'm not emotionally attracted to guys. But why do I still watch and get turned on by gay porn? Does it mean I'm bi? I'm 18 and when I was about fifteen, I thought I would grow out of it but it's been too long and it really confuses me. Any help is welcome. Thank you

[Zachary G]

the fact that you watch gay porn and have had a few sexual encounters with guys makes me say that you are gay curious - and i say that because of how you say you feel afterwards (dirty, disgusted) -- i have always said there is no such thing as a 50/50 bisexual, they are always attracted more one way than another, for you it could be something like 95% straight and 5% gay. its really hard to say, only you can really answer that one, but i hope i have given you something to think about.

[Uranus]

Sounds like you're bi/gay curious to me.

[SethfromMI]

you might be bi curious or even possibly bi

[Atom]

I don't think you're gay. At all actually. You might just be bi-curious, which is normal and common for your age (yes, even at 18). In any case you shouldn't change your habits because of what you associate yourself with. Keep doing what you love as long as it makes you happy.

[Semi_IronMan]

You're probably bi-curious