queenofcontrariety
November 15th, 2014, 07:15 PM
I have on really close male friend, when my entire world went to shit in June he was the only person I was able to rely on. Granted I've always kinda figured he'd catch feelings for me, I was just kinda praying he'd never address it. Well he did at the end on September and it just fucked with me. I had plenty on my plate and I was relying on him quite heavily, but I could never see us as a thing. He's just kinda lacking in just about every department that comes to mind. He's short by my standards, smart but doesn't plan on going to college (he wants to go into the navy and become a welder), he's kinda funny but literally everyone hates him. He's really protective of me which is great but it can get very annoying. Well when he finally confessed his feelings I was brutally honest and cut him off.
We had an off-season event for robotics last weekend and things were back to normal. I couldn't tell where he stood with his feelings but my best guess is the same location because he was like a little puppy and did anything I asked. We casually texted once or twice for the first time since I cut him off, and well I went to my first psych appointment because shit has gotten bad and well I'd like to have someone to rely on. He's about the only one who knows a lot of the stuff but he doesn't know what happened when we weren't speaking. I mean I kinda want to go back to really confiding in him but I know it'd fuck him up majorly but I have no one else to turn to at the moment. We actually got into a baby fight over my refusal to accept his help, am I wrong? Should I rely on him? I just feel like it'll screw with him too much and I don't want to project the wrong idea but I do need someone, anyone really... I just don't know what to do.
We had an off-season event for robotics last weekend and things were back to normal. I couldn't tell where he stood with his feelings but my best guess is the same location because he was like a little puppy and did anything I asked. We casually texted once or twice for the first time since I cut him off, and well I went to my first psych appointment because shit has gotten bad and well I'd like to have someone to rely on. He's about the only one who knows a lot of the stuff but he doesn't know what happened when we weren't speaking. I mean I kinda want to go back to really confiding in him but I know it'd fuck him up majorly but I have no one else to turn to at the moment. We actually got into a baby fight over my refusal to accept his help, am I wrong? Should I rely on him? I just feel like it'll screw with him too much and I don't want to project the wrong idea but I do need someone, anyone really... I just don't know what to do.