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[Lovelife090994]

I think one day I'll be all alone and that everyone hates me. I want to die. No one loves me but I don't think I can feel or reciprocate love. I feel insane conflicted. I trust no one. Hate all, feel like I snapped and may become violent. I have no hope. Hope is hopeless. I hate love and life and feeling. I just want to die or get hurt more. I know everyone I knew will abandon me soon. I am paranoid and abxious, and I have no choice but to live alone. Life is bleak. I got my demented wish. I am a failure, fuck-up, and insnae mental case who hates all. I hate and can never accept myself. Supposedly I'm homophobic and hateful. I think the LGBT are out to get me. And I care little to nill for anyone including myself. No matter what people say I mostly hear my evil voices. Help never helped and now I want to lose all I held dear. I sometimes I were terribly hurt ot beat by those I fear and hate. They were right, I'm nothing. So I cracked today. I feel bland. And I know I'm sick if I want to be hurt. Like how can you want to be hurt or raped? I don't know. Ask my brain. Maybe it'll answer you because I have no clue or answer. I just know I just cracked, wrecked my room, and am in my bed debating what to do next.

[Leprous]

I think one day I'll be all alone and that everyone hates me. I want to die. No one loves me but I don't think I can feel or reciprocate love. I feel insane conflicted. I trust no one. Hate all, feel like I snapped and may become violent. I have no hope. Hope is hopeless. I hate love and life and feeling. I just want to die or get hurt more. I know everyone I knew will abandon me soon. I am paranoid and abxious, and I have no choice but to live alone. Life is bleak. I got my demented wish. I am a failure, fuck-up, and insnae mental case who hates all. I hate and can never accept myself. Supposedly I'm homophobic and hateful. I think the LGBT are out to get me. And I care little to nill for anyone including myself. No matter what people say I mostly hear my evil voices. Help never helped and now I want to lose all I held dear. I sometimes I were terribly hurt ot beat by those I fear and hate. They were right, I'm nothing. So I cracked today. I feel bland. And I know I'm sick if I want to be hurt. Like how can you want to be hurt or raped? I don't know. Ask my brain. Maybe it'll answer you because I have no clue or answer. I just know I just cracked, wrecked my room, and am in my bed debating what to do next.

Chris, buddy, listen up.

I love you man, as a friend, I care about you! You've always been there for me and you're a great person.
There is ALWAYS hope, and that is something I found out at last. We have to fight no matter what life throws at us, whatever life brings us, depression shall never get the best of us.
You're a strong guy, and I know it. I just need you to hold on, there is a reason to move on, and that reason is you. The reason you should move on is because you're a great person who's going to do great things!
Chris, buddy, please don't give up, I need you, you're one of the few people that I really care about.

If you ever need someone, please just let me know.

[James Dean]

Aww. Don't worry. Calm down for sec. http://www.co8.org/forum/images/smilies/icon_hug.gif

I understand your situation, it's hard dealing with sexuality issues and feeling alone. Feeling like you're going down a bottomless pit. It's fine, don't lose. You are a winner, you just started the race so you feel discouraged now. Don't be, prove everyone wrong and become your own champion.

Expressing yourself is good, admitting to your problems is a great step. Talk to someone if you feel like you're going to hurt yourself. That includes us, or a mental health professional. I'm not asking you to do anything that you don't want to do, I just care about your safety, I don't want you to put yourself down. I want you to see the wider picture. Temporary issues are present right now, you just need the courage to fight them and ignore them. Be happy of who you are and open yourself up. Please take care of yourself. We all care about you and want the best. Hugs again. http://www.co8.org/forum/images/smilies/icon_hug.gif

[Lovelife090994]

Chris, buddy, listen up.

I love you man, as a friend, I care about you! You've always been there for me and you're a great person.
There is ALWAYS hope, and that is something I found out at last. We have to fight no matter what life throws at us, whatever life brings us, depression shall never get the best of us.
You're a strong guy, and I know it. I just need you to hold on, there is a reason to move on, and that reason is you. The reason you should move on is because you're a great person who's going to do great things!
Chris, buddy, please don't give up, I need you, you're one of the few people that I really care about.

If you ever need someone, please just let me know.

You can't mean that. How can you possibly need me? You don't know me.

Aww. Don't worry. Calm down for sec. image (http://www.co8.org/forum/images/smilies/icon_hug.gif)

I understand your situation, it's hard dealing with sexuality issues and feeling alone. Feeling like you're going down a bottomless pit. It's fine, don't lose. You are a winner, you just started the race so you feel discouraged now. Don't be, prove everyone wrong and become your own champion.

Expressing yourself is good, admitting to your problems is a great step. Talk to someone if you feel like you're going to hurt yourself. That includes us, or a mental health professional. I'm not asking you to do anything that you don't want to do, I just care about your safety, I don't want you to put yourself down. I want you to see the wider picture. Temporary issues are present right now, you just need the courage to fight them and ignore them. Be happy of who you are and open yourself up. Please take care of yourself. We all care about you and want the best. Hugs again. image (http://www.co8.org/forum/images/smilies/icon_hug.gif)

I only feel worse but thanks for trying.