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Mzor203
March 27th, 2008, 12:03 AM
Some of you may recall that I posted about a girl that I liked and how I was too shy to ask her out etc. etc.

Before I liked this girl I was at a different school, and there was another girl who was a year older than me that I liked. She was like a musical genius, so she was like an angel in my eyes. :D This year I went to a different school, an started liking the girl I posted about before, and kind of liked the other girl less since I don't see her as much now (I still see her twice a week now at musical events). But I always kind of liked her in the back of my mind.

Now, two days ago I was at the weekly practice for our town orchestra, and we were packing up and leaving, and I was just standing there as the lady who gives me a ride every week back to my house was talking to some friends. This girl who I kind of liked was also standing around and our eyes met and she said hi very cheerfully. And I said hi back, but nothing else, and she commented on how quiet I was. I responded that it was because before high school (Which starts in 8th grade in BC Canada, or kind of anyways) I was homeschooled and never talked to anybody. Then she just reached out and gave me a teasing pat on the shoulder, saying that if I still went to the school where she was I would be quite talkative since she would make me talk.


But the thing is, when she touched me, something went off inside me, and now she is the girl that dominates my thoughts almost every waking moment of my day. I need help because I seriously want to stop thinking about girls and start thinking more about the important stuff like school. I feel desperate to go out with her, and I don't want to feel like that, especially since I doubt she would since she's a year older than me. Help?

Coesistere
March 27th, 2008, 12:43 AM
i freaking LOVE that this sounds like it should be a part in a younge adult book. ( mabye thats just my opinon );)

As for your problem, this has hapened to me A LOT to, it maybe that ur just not used to anything like regular contact with girls. i find that even though i have NO IDEA what my sexuality is that just the lightess touch from any school mates (boy or girl) sends my heart rate FLYING :wub:and i cant stop pay atention to anything else.....so that could just be that. But as for the wishing that you would start thinking clearly about stuff like school again.... im afraid that i got nothing to say besides that you just for now have to be draged to where-ever your heart takes you:yes:

hope i was of any help,
matt-man ;)

Mzor203
March 27th, 2008, 12:53 AM
Hmmm... No it's not just that I'm not used to the touch of girl's, because this one time I saw this girl who I'm just friends with and we hadn't seen each other for a while and she just jokingly patted and prodded my face. So yeah. It's not that I can't think about school and stuff, it's just that I don't want this girl's lovely face dominating my mind all the time. I can just always see her and my mind and I always just want to grab her and pull her towards me and kiss her even though she's not there. It's frustrating to me not having this girl by my side loving me back, and I wish these thoughts would go away because I know I'll probably never go out with her and the anger and frustration are just going to keep increasing, and I'm afraid they might increase to the level of unbearability.

I feel like I have to write a frickin poem to spill my feelings out right now. Which I might just do...

Console me people...

ScotsGirl
March 27th, 2008, 04:11 PM
*consoles* :console:

:D
If you like this girl, why don't you try becoming more friendly with her?

Do you think it could be because she reached out to you? By saying that she would make you talk at her school, suggests that she wants to hear what you have to say.
Any slight feelings you had before are going to be multiplied because when someone shows they like us/approve of us/want to get to know us, even if it is just in a friendly way, then it boosts our confidence and gives us a great feeling, resulting in our opinion of them being heightened.

Why do you think you will never go out with her?
Do you want to?

xxx

Mzor203
March 27th, 2008, 11:23 PM
Errghh...

Yes, I want to go out with her. But that is the only thing that is clear in my mind. We kind of are friends,but we only see each other twice a week and there are always lots of other people around, making it hard to get into a good conversation with her. I feel like I'll never go out with her because I am the most shy person who ever existed. I'll never have the guts to ask her out unless she shows blatant signs of liking me... which I believe will never happen.

What I need are ways to stop thinking of her so often... I just need help.

Nihilus
March 29th, 2008, 06:01 PM
Almost the same with me.

ItsNotOver777
March 29th, 2008, 10:11 PM
when you like someone alot, you can't stop thinking about them, don't try and control your feelings, you can't make yourself stop liking someone.

I say you should try just talking to her a little more often, hanging out with her whenever you can, and see if you can make something happen.

funny how a little action can make your feelings for someone completely change, isn't it?

happytimes
April 2nd, 2008, 01:00 AM
that happened to me once. it's actually really hard to get rid of the feeling and move on actually kinda impossible. just give it some time. time makes everything pass away.

Mzor203
April 2nd, 2008, 01:03 AM
But right now it's hard because I don't want to move on or have it pass away. I'm thinking now that she may like me, but if I do get in a relationship with her, what happens when we break up? It's scary to think about.

iJack
April 3rd, 2008, 12:20 AM
It sounds like you love each other, just try to maybe break the ice with her slowly, if she backs off or hesitates, back away, that would probably clear your mind

Mzor203
April 3rd, 2008, 02:12 AM
Maybe... but the age gap scares me (I know it's silly) and there's never much time to talk to her, so I'm really not comfortable around her and this whole thing is driving me mad. I feel like I'm suffering from a very strong infatuation and I don't know what to do about it.