queenofcontrariety
November 4th, 2014, 05:28 PM
I've been known to have these really crazy outbursts, I mean I guess that's what I'd call them. I currently have the weird feeling I get before one and it is literally driving me crazy. I usually get into a ton of trouble when I actually have one of these outbursts and I'm just not looking forward to dealing with one but it feels pretty inevitable. Like I'm super irritable and my parents will end up picking some fight and I'll end up screaming, then comes tears and maybe some strange laughter I can't explain and the whole time I just want to break stuff. I mean I'm lucky in a sense because I never want to self harm in these times because I'm just too on edge. I have no idea what this even is, I guess I just want to know if anyone else deals with this, I mean I have plenty of other stuff going on and if you saw my previous post I am attempting to get myself help, but this is something I am just so confused about.