Uranus
October 28th, 2014, 10:26 AM
Well...shit.
How do I start this? I don't know really....
I guess I should tell you all.. Lets just go with the beginning.
About a year ago(November) I was just thinking about my life and what I'm doing wrong. I was doing what I could but I couldn't find a gf. Anyways all the girls I talked to were good friends with me. We all had laughs, flirted some, hung out, and all that shit.
Anyways I thought to myself, 'Maybe I'll just talk to some people on chat sites.'...so I did. The reason why was I wanted to talk to someone about it..but anonymously. Anyways I come across this girl on there(14).. We talked(Well, typed and chatted) and we messaged each other back and forth and yea...
Anyways after a few weeks I started to feel a....connection. So I thought 'Maybe this could be the girl.. After all....what do I have to lose?' ....
...so I give her my number..
I haven't logged on since then(Around that time I mean) and I've been busy. So one day I am in Michigan at my grandparents and I get a random text saying... "Hey".. I message back and ask "Who's this?".(This was in January 2014)
"Arianna from(Chat site). You gave me your number like a month ago lol".
So then we started talking. Turns out she was single.. I didn't try anything yet so I was thinking maybe I should. We happened to actually talk constantly. Over 100 texts a day. And at least one hour through a phone call...minimum.
So actually in February the 6th we...became boyfriend and girlfriend. I was happy and she was too.
(I'm not going into every detail because it would take forever. Ask me in my diary for more details if you want)
Unfortunately in late February she was in the hospital. She had seizures. The doctors still don't know what caused it...even to this day.
She had 6 seizures. Now what made it worse is she's small for her age. She's 4ft 11inches. With a body that small it could really damage her. She was not able to talk to me. Her mother actually texted me and kept me up on the information.
For some reason I was concerned and worried. I loved her. She eventually left to go home from the hospital and was doing fine.
Two weeks later....more seizures.Now this time it was only 4. The bad thing is...she wasn't expected to live. Her mother was scared, I was scared.. She could have died!!.
But after a few days she was out of the hospital. I was so happy for her. I don't know what she went through but she did it. She is strong. She said the only reason she got through it was for me. And because of a motivational message I sent her.
So after that we talked and did mostly everything you do in a long distance relationship.
We have even grown in our sex life and talked sexually too. But that is another story.
Later she began to open up her life to me a little bit more after she trusted me more(Because her past relationships were not good). She told me that when we met, she was pregnant. She was raped at just 13 years old. I was mind blown. In January, around the time she texted me, she gave birth to a beautiful daughter. The reason she didn't tell me is because she wanted to, but was nervous to do so.
Anyways she was not able to keep her daughter. Because her mother is on minimum wage and her father left around 7 years ago. Once she turns 18 then she will finally get her daughter back.
I loved Arianna. And she already considered me as her daughters father. I would be a dad at 18. I felt so happy. And I felt ALIVE.
More time goes by and we grow in our love and relationship even more.
Later she told me, when her mom was pregnant with her,(Arianna), her dad wanted her aborted. I hated him. But she was not aborted.
The sad part is he was given the opportunity to name her(First name).... And he did...but he named her after the woman who he cheated on her mom with.. What the fuck?!?!
I've hated him ever since I heard that. That's why I've been pissed the last two months.
Now me and Arianna are the perfect couple it feels like. I was made for her and her for me...
...the sad thing is.. Her phone which was 4 years old got broken. Fortunately she got a new one. So her old number...gone..i now have her new phone number. So we texted and talked that evening so yea...what's the sad part you may ask? Her father called me...he never knew about the relationship. He demanded me to never talk to her again. I'm like "fuck you I'm going to talk to her whether you like it or not".(I said that to myself..not him).. So I called a few days later..to give him some time and not be suspicious.. *beep beep beep* *ring* "The number you have dialed is no longer in service"....What the hell!?!??!?
Now I have nothing to do to contact her... The only form of communication..was phone calls and texts. Now both numbers are invalid....
....it's over..
..I've been crying my eyes out because I can't talk to her... I guess this is the easy way to end a relationship...no communication...
..as sad as I am I now have a new gf...Danielle. She's sweet, beautiful, funny, almost the same as Arianna. I just hope it lasts this time...
I don't know if I should've posted this...but I needed to let it out...
...i feel sad, yet happy.
How do I start this? I don't know really....
I guess I should tell you all.. Lets just go with the beginning.
About a year ago(November) I was just thinking about my life and what I'm doing wrong. I was doing what I could but I couldn't find a gf. Anyways all the girls I talked to were good friends with me. We all had laughs, flirted some, hung out, and all that shit.
Anyways I thought to myself, 'Maybe I'll just talk to some people on chat sites.'...so I did. The reason why was I wanted to talk to someone about it..but anonymously. Anyways I come across this girl on there(14).. We talked(Well, typed and chatted) and we messaged each other back and forth and yea...
Anyways after a few weeks I started to feel a....connection. So I thought 'Maybe this could be the girl.. After all....what do I have to lose?' ....
...so I give her my number..
I haven't logged on since then(Around that time I mean) and I've been busy. So one day I am in Michigan at my grandparents and I get a random text saying... "Hey".. I message back and ask "Who's this?".(This was in January 2014)
"Arianna from(Chat site). You gave me your number like a month ago lol".
So then we started talking. Turns out she was single.. I didn't try anything yet so I was thinking maybe I should. We happened to actually talk constantly. Over 100 texts a day. And at least one hour through a phone call...minimum.
So actually in February the 6th we...became boyfriend and girlfriend. I was happy and she was too.
(I'm not going into every detail because it would take forever. Ask me in my diary for more details if you want)
Unfortunately in late February she was in the hospital. She had seizures. The doctors still don't know what caused it...even to this day.
She had 6 seizures. Now what made it worse is she's small for her age. She's 4ft 11inches. With a body that small it could really damage her. She was not able to talk to me. Her mother actually texted me and kept me up on the information.
For some reason I was concerned and worried. I loved her. She eventually left to go home from the hospital and was doing fine.
Two weeks later....more seizures.Now this time it was only 4. The bad thing is...she wasn't expected to live. Her mother was scared, I was scared.. She could have died!!.
But after a few days she was out of the hospital. I was so happy for her. I don't know what she went through but she did it. She is strong. She said the only reason she got through it was for me. And because of a motivational message I sent her.
So after that we talked and did mostly everything you do in a long distance relationship.
We have even grown in our sex life and talked sexually too. But that is another story.
Later she began to open up her life to me a little bit more after she trusted me more(Because her past relationships were not good). She told me that when we met, she was pregnant. She was raped at just 13 years old. I was mind blown. In January, around the time she texted me, she gave birth to a beautiful daughter. The reason she didn't tell me is because she wanted to, but was nervous to do so.
Anyways she was not able to keep her daughter. Because her mother is on minimum wage and her father left around 7 years ago. Once she turns 18 then she will finally get her daughter back.
I loved Arianna. And she already considered me as her daughters father. I would be a dad at 18. I felt so happy. And I felt ALIVE.
More time goes by and we grow in our love and relationship even more.
Later she told me, when her mom was pregnant with her,(Arianna), her dad wanted her aborted. I hated him. But she was not aborted.
The sad part is he was given the opportunity to name her(First name).... And he did...but he named her after the woman who he cheated on her mom with.. What the fuck?!?!
I've hated him ever since I heard that. That's why I've been pissed the last two months.
Now me and Arianna are the perfect couple it feels like. I was made for her and her for me...
...the sad thing is.. Her phone which was 4 years old got broken. Fortunately she got a new one. So her old number...gone..i now have her new phone number. So we texted and talked that evening so yea...what's the sad part you may ask? Her father called me...he never knew about the relationship. He demanded me to never talk to her again. I'm like "fuck you I'm going to talk to her whether you like it or not".(I said that to myself..not him).. So I called a few days later..to give him some time and not be suspicious.. *beep beep beep* *ring* "The number you have dialed is no longer in service"....What the hell!?!??!?
Now I have nothing to do to contact her... The only form of communication..was phone calls and texts. Now both numbers are invalid....
....it's over..
..I've been crying my eyes out because I can't talk to her... I guess this is the easy way to end a relationship...no communication...
..as sad as I am I now have a new gf...Danielle. She's sweet, beautiful, funny, almost the same as Arianna. I just hope it lasts this time...
I don't know if I should've posted this...but I needed to let it out...
...i feel sad, yet happy.