Relapsing with out a reason, is it a possibility?

[queenofcontrariety]

I haven't cut in almost a year, well until now that is. Even at my worst it was an occasional thing when I really couldn't handle life. Things like bad breakups, injuries I didn't cause reeking havoc on my life, parent issues, body image issues, seemingly standard things. No one ever really knew about it and I had a firm handle on it. Lately I just feel like I'm drowning and I don't know why. I tried to hold out, I really did. My parents finally agreed to take me to just get general help because they see a little bit of my inner insanity. They still have no idea I harm. It's been weeks and they haven't even called the doctor to even attempt to get me an appointment. I just can't take life right now. The last few days have been a cycle of being okay and then somewhat wanting to jump out a window, I calm myself down and I want to cut but always found a reason not to. Today, there is no reason not to, and its terrifying. I know I'm new around here and it may seem like comparatively my issues are pretty small. I guess I just want to know if anyone has an idea why someone could relapse with nothing exceedingly traumatic going on.

[Miserabilia]

It's perfectly normal. SH is an addiction so it's normal to suddenly feel the need to start again and start the addiction cycle again. You could see it as if the period where you didn't self harm wasn't stopping, it was just a longer break in between.

[Karkat]

Um, it sounds to me like you have a perfectly valid reason to relapse. You seem to be going through quite a bit right now.

But sometimes, you'll have those moments. Moments where it won't logically make sense, but you'll still feel that need. Like Dan (Toasted Cheese) said, it's an addiction, and addictions can hit you at any time for any reason.

Hang in there. I hope you can get help soon. :hug:

[queenofcontrariety]

Thanks guys, it just sucks, like I didn't want this to happen again. It was a chapter of my life I thought was over and done with but clearly it isn't. I'll do my best to keep things somewhat under control, but I'm saying this with slight damage already done so don't hold me to it. I'm only hoping that this'll be a one time deal and I can go back to how things had been

[Miserabilia]

Thanks guys, it just sucks, like I didn't want this to happen again. It was a chapter of my life I thought was over and done with but clearly it isn't. I'll do my best to keep things somewhat under control, but I'm saying this with slight damage already done so don't hold me to it. I'm only hoping that this'll be a one time deal and I can go back to how things had been

I'm in your exact situation right now. Let's do this together, all of us :hug:

[Abhorrence]

Yeah it's completely possible to relapse without any valid reason. I mean you probably do have a reason but still it is possible. Self-harm is an addiction and no addiction ever truly leaves. You could have ten years without it and there will be days where you still want to do it.