secrets (poem)

[justkeepswimming]

I have many secrets that I still haven't told

Like how the yellow line on the subway compels me to end my inner cold

Or the way I feel I would be safest in a padded room

The secret that my head is filled with nothing but gloom

The fact that a blade to my rist feels so sweet

Or the fact that my arms do nothing but scream for that dangerous treat

The fact that the smallest thing sets me off

I cry and I cry till I start to cough

I feel like I'm drowning just getting hit by wave after wave

And yet I have to find some way to be brave

I need to stay positive

I got to find a will to live

I have to keep pushing and get through fight after fight

I gotta find a way to make everything right

But the pressure is on and I'm losing my will

I'd do anything to feel something I might even kill

You be honest with your friends and they just turn all sappy

everyone screams at you to be happy

"It's okay everything will be okay "

They just don't understand what it's like when ur sky is always grey

Life's not a canvas You can't force it to blue

You can't just paint life and make it easier for you

So these are my secrets and this is the truth

I'm completely lost I've ruined my youth

I'm a puzzle and the pieces won't fit

I've dug myself a bottomless Pitt

I'm trying to fly with a broken wing

My vocal cord is shot yet I still sing

My heart is torn in half yet I still love

I don't believe in God but I still pray to the lord above

I feel like I'm undead yet I'm still alive

Life isn't about living it's about learning to survive

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[justkeepswimming]

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