Feel sad a lot but have a good life?

[ANNAnymous]

So for the past couple of months I've been feeling really really down. I've just started college and though I'm enjoying college I'm not at the same time because I've made no friends there, despite it being my 7th week there tomorrow, I just feel I don't fit in anywhere and my conversation skills are so awful I don't really blame any one for not taking an interest in me.
The main thing is I'm so sad at the moment because I recently lost loads of weight in the holiday (I was overweight before and got to somewhere normal) but from like a few months ago I started getting really down and emotionally eating then feeling really bad about that. And then the familiar cycle took hold...until I pretty much gained all of it back. Starting college didn't help with the emotional eating either. I've been trying to get it under control and start losing weight again but now my eating is all over the place and not the healthy diet I was on before. I think this is because of the emotional eating. There were some times when I'd try to throw it back up, which scared me to think I would be capable of that kind of behaviour.
But the thing is I don't know where this sadness came from in the first place for me to start acting this way. I've just been feeling really really sad and helpless and I'm starting to seriously lose motivation to do my work.
I feel I have no respite at college (because I don't have any friends and don't feel comfortable there yet) or at home (because theres food there and it makes me feel anxious I'm just gonna eat it all, which I usually do). I've been crying a lot and nothing seems to cheer me up and I just feel horrible. I spent about three hours tonight just crying and feeling just terrible

I feel stupid though because there's nothing bad happening in my life like a death or anything, so I don't feel as if my sadness, emotional eating and being a loner at college is justified. This has stopped me from seeking help, because If people ask me why I'm sad I won't have anything to say.

I don't know if I have an issue or if I'm just being whiny. I don't know if I need help. I FEEL like I do, at least once everyday I think to myself I need help but I don't know If I'm overreacting. I'm also not a very open person and I feel theres this huge part of me Im hiding. But I hate talking to people about my feelings and stuff. I feel awkward.

Thanks for listening to me rabbit on. I know its long and boring and maybe a bit of a first world problem thing

[Karkat]

You have no reason to worry that you're being whiny or anything. It sounds like you could be depressed, and you're struggling with EA, and that's a pretty big deal too.

Does your campus have any kind of counselor you could go to?

[JamesSuperBoy]

Ok no need to feel stupid or whiny whatevers - it is either you look at each issue or the whole deal - maybe the college has a counselor /guidance staff or there is someone else you can talk to maybe even think about see a doctor - many people get a bit down or depressed.

[sweetcake]

It's okay, really, VT's a place to share isn't it?
If you feel like you don't fit in with your college friends yet, why don't you try joining a club you might like, I'm sure there are people there who has the same interests as you. You just need to keep looking:)
As for the sad part, I'm with Ren. Even though you don't know what to talk about, just make an appointment with the counselor first. You'll know what to say eventually. Trust me I've been through that too.