Existential Crisis o.O

[Jungle]

Hmmm.... Well firtly it's mprotant to note that I have always found living futile, as we al die in the end anyway, tis just how I am. but 3 years ago I fell in lvoe and the peron I fell in love with gave my life a sens eof purpose. I wanted to help them, live for them, do anything to make them happy. It made me feel like I was actually doing smeething. Its the same guy ive mentioned on here before, about giving mixed signals and stuff... anyway, although we never were in a relationship, we were really close. now hes mvoed to college and sent me a message saying he doesnt need me anymore.

Heres my prblem, I really did love him, nto just some childish fancy thing. And im lost. I really am, without him my life seems meaningless, I am depressed about my own existance, I dont know what to do with my life, and I find myself thinking ( when im not thinking about him) thinking about how my life is so pointless. I feel so alone and isolated, and no one seems to understand. I am nto sure if I' looking for advice or anything, it's just ncie to vent this. but, I am sure msot of you think life has some sort of meaning, but to me there is none. If someone told me tomorrow I had a terminal ilness and wuld die in the next 24 hours, I would only be sad about the fact I didnt get to make the guy I love happy. Other than that, I just dont care anymore....

[James Dean]

Don't have that attitude though. If you feel that way, at least feel positive about it. Explore new things and activities. Take up hobbies that you haven't before. Open yourself up to new people and friends. Forget him, if he wants to be like that, you are too good for him anyways. Just stay positive as you don't know what the future holds. :)

[Jungle]

Thanks, thats ncie of you :) but people underestimate the way I feel about him.. I'm nto trying to bi myself up or anything, but simpyl " forgetting about him" isn't much of an option..

Thanks for takign the time anyway :L

[Laraa.01]

Life always has a meaning. I think many of us on here (myself included) just haven't found that meaning. OK you lost a guy that meant loads to you but you'll find somene else in time or some other purpose you find in life. We all do.