I'm not doing well

[Babs]

I don't know why I'm typing this but I have no where else to turn to.
I feel worse than ever. I've never felt more utterly disgusted with myself and everything that I am. I feel disconnected from myself yet I feel anchored to myself at the same time, if that makes sense.
I feel like no matter how hard I try to do good, I always fuck things up, embarrass myself and hurt the people around me. It's not even worth it anymore.
I've been so on the edge. I have so little energy to do anything simple like get dressed, I just sit on the floor to try to gather the motivation to get a fucking shirt out of the dresser. I know that sounds stupid but I just can't get past these thoughts long enough to bring myself to do anything. I've never been so close to ending it, and all I can think about is how awful I am and how to end it, when, and where. I felt so terrible and stupid typing this (some parts more than others) but I don't know where to turn anymore.

[Karkat]

I get it entirely. I entirely feel this way right now. There will be some days, or even a week or two maybe where I feel motivated, and I think things are getting better, but I can't bring myself to do anything anymore. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of myself.
It's not stupid, any of it. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this, but I do not think you're stupid for writing this- not even close.

I wish I could say something to help beyond that, but I'm stuck too. I mean, if you ever need to vent, my inbox is open. I can't guarantee that I'll be much help, but I'm here. Just know that you're not alone, ok? :hug:

[Miserabilia]

I was where you were a while ago. As a matter of fact I'm still kind of there.
I don't really have good advice to give you.
You're definetly not alone.
Sometimes we all go through this, and sometimes it feels like it just never stops.

[Laraa.01]

It sounds like you maybe need to seek some help. Maybe speak to someone you trust about how you are feeling. It often does get better in time, just while you go through the tough times it can feel like a tunnel with no end in sight.

[Pacaveli]

I know the feeling.