Maco
October 13th, 2014, 01:22 AM
Hello i just made an account on VT so im new just to intro myself real quick my name is aaron im 18 still in hs and im bi:/ i also live in Florida. and im a guy
Ok Like 3 weeks ago i told my bestfriend (Guy) that i was bisexual.
note: ive been keeping this a secret since i was like 15...
he was the first person i told and surprisingly he was ok with it (We are alot closer now then before) ive been depressed for about 3 years now alot has happened in the last 3 years my grandpa my uncle and my aunt died in the same time period. and on top of that my dad was sent to prison for 5 years.
whats killing me is that i told my mom and maybe 3 people that i was bisexual and at first it was no prob well now its turned into a nightmare my bestfriends mom judges the fuck out of me like im some demon walking around saying im turning her son gay which is highly impossible people cant change other people you have to change yourself note that this women is 42 fucking years old and is gonna sit there and talk shit about an 18 year old when shes some dried up hoe that talks shit about (HER OWN CHILDREN TO ME) then turns around and talks shit about me to them like tf is that.
(Me and his mom used to love each other to death untill i told her and now she fucking hates me she hasnt said anything to me about it but i just know because you can feel the tension around me and her.)
also she hasn't told me to my face that she thinks im turning her son gay
she told her son and daughter. i was over at her house yesterday with her daughter (Friend) and her son (bestfriend) my bestfriends girlfriend was also there ive been friends with his gf since like 6 grade so were really close she tells me everything and she told me that there mom said that well there mom got home after work and as soon as she saw me she stoped talking and started acting weird. so i just went outside and left because i couldnt be around that fucking cunt.
Oh it gets better to my mom thinks the opposite.
my mom acted like she was ok with it but now shes being a total bitch to me for no reason at all she acts like she hates my bestfriend but when he comes around she talks to him more than me.
my mom has said are you like this becuase ur friend is like this
i told her no like why the fuck are you gonna ask me that?
so she thinks im bi is because of him and its not.
i hardly eat i barley sleep and im always angry theres no other emotions in me besides angry i used to cut myself but ive stopped
i smoke cigs an i smoke weed i use weed to deal with all the stress even tho you shouldnt use that for you problems.
and dont get me started on my family.
half of my family hates me anyways (i havent told anyone that im bi besides my mom my bestfriend his sister his mom and his gf) and yet they still hate me and if i tell them there gonna hate me even more
my other side of my family i still talk to them but i couldnt tell them im bi because they WILL NOT understand at all there country go people rednecks you kno so ik for damn sure they wont understand and it kills me to spend the night with my cousins cuz all i here is look at that queer on tv or lmfao that faggot gets it up the but.
its very hard to deal with all this stuff like somtimes i think about killing myself like tonight the depression hit me hard and i almost od on meds in my moms room...
oh it gets worse..
After all that ive said it gets worse because im in love with my bestfriend and he doesnt kno it but the thing is hes straight and has a gf but he does and says things tho like it confuses me so bad and it plays with my heart to.
Hes really flirty with me and his gf has told me that he worries about me constantly people have told us we act like were married. he gets mad when i dont text or call him and he gets upset when i get mad over something.
last weekend he were drinking and with his gf (says he straight)
but he gets in the backseat and sucks my nipple (weird right even tho im attracted to guys i dont see myself like that and it makes me feel all weird and crap even tho i like it i still feel like its gross to do that stuff with the same sex) after he did that he kept poking me in me sides and keep trying to touch my nipples after i told him to stop he then gets into my lap and kisses his gf thats in the driver seat then looks at me and kisses me like 4 times while trying to grab and touch my uhmm u kno after that we stopped at the store and he gets his gf to go into the bathroom with him since he was drunk
(i was outside the store smokin a cig at the time) he comes out of the store his gf is still in the bath room and he tires to kiss me again and these arent like regular kisses they are full blow out tongue with it.
(Hes never done this before like the kissing wise)
i asked his gf about it she said it was the acohol i told her no it cant ive seen him way more drunk and hes never done that to me or anybody else
ive even been way more drunk than that and i wasnt kissing dudes and trying to grab there dick.
hes also showed me his penis ALOT soft and hard and always makes jokes saying suck my dick all the time.
even when hes not drunk he touches me but not on my dick this time but he used to try to hump me when i was like bent over grabing somthing off the floor and crap its just a bunch of mess and im just really screwed up in the head can someone help me or give me some info on this
also sorry about my typing skills:/
Ok Like 3 weeks ago i told my bestfriend (Guy) that i was bisexual.
note: ive been keeping this a secret since i was like 15...
he was the first person i told and surprisingly he was ok with it (We are alot closer now then before) ive been depressed for about 3 years now alot has happened in the last 3 years my grandpa my uncle and my aunt died in the same time period. and on top of that my dad was sent to prison for 5 years.
whats killing me is that i told my mom and maybe 3 people that i was bisexual and at first it was no prob well now its turned into a nightmare my bestfriends mom judges the fuck out of me like im some demon walking around saying im turning her son gay which is highly impossible people cant change other people you have to change yourself note that this women is 42 fucking years old and is gonna sit there and talk shit about an 18 year old when shes some dried up hoe that talks shit about (HER OWN CHILDREN TO ME) then turns around and talks shit about me to them like tf is that.
(Me and his mom used to love each other to death untill i told her and now she fucking hates me she hasnt said anything to me about it but i just know because you can feel the tension around me and her.)
also she hasn't told me to my face that she thinks im turning her son gay
she told her son and daughter. i was over at her house yesterday with her daughter (Friend) and her son (bestfriend) my bestfriends girlfriend was also there ive been friends with his gf since like 6 grade so were really close she tells me everything and she told me that there mom said that well there mom got home after work and as soon as she saw me she stoped talking and started acting weird. so i just went outside and left because i couldnt be around that fucking cunt.
Oh it gets better to my mom thinks the opposite.
my mom acted like she was ok with it but now shes being a total bitch to me for no reason at all she acts like she hates my bestfriend but when he comes around she talks to him more than me.
my mom has said are you like this becuase ur friend is like this
i told her no like why the fuck are you gonna ask me that?
so she thinks im bi is because of him and its not.
i hardly eat i barley sleep and im always angry theres no other emotions in me besides angry i used to cut myself but ive stopped
i smoke cigs an i smoke weed i use weed to deal with all the stress even tho you shouldnt use that for you problems.
and dont get me started on my family.
half of my family hates me anyways (i havent told anyone that im bi besides my mom my bestfriend his sister his mom and his gf) and yet they still hate me and if i tell them there gonna hate me even more
my other side of my family i still talk to them but i couldnt tell them im bi because they WILL NOT understand at all there country go people rednecks you kno so ik for damn sure they wont understand and it kills me to spend the night with my cousins cuz all i here is look at that queer on tv or lmfao that faggot gets it up the but.
its very hard to deal with all this stuff like somtimes i think about killing myself like tonight the depression hit me hard and i almost od on meds in my moms room...
oh it gets worse..
After all that ive said it gets worse because im in love with my bestfriend and he doesnt kno it but the thing is hes straight and has a gf but he does and says things tho like it confuses me so bad and it plays with my heart to.
Hes really flirty with me and his gf has told me that he worries about me constantly people have told us we act like were married. he gets mad when i dont text or call him and he gets upset when i get mad over something.
last weekend he were drinking and with his gf (says he straight)
but he gets in the backseat and sucks my nipple (weird right even tho im attracted to guys i dont see myself like that and it makes me feel all weird and crap even tho i like it i still feel like its gross to do that stuff with the same sex) after he did that he kept poking me in me sides and keep trying to touch my nipples after i told him to stop he then gets into my lap and kisses his gf thats in the driver seat then looks at me and kisses me like 4 times while trying to grab and touch my uhmm u kno after that we stopped at the store and he gets his gf to go into the bathroom with him since he was drunk
(i was outside the store smokin a cig at the time) he comes out of the store his gf is still in the bath room and he tires to kiss me again and these arent like regular kisses they are full blow out tongue with it.
(Hes never done this before like the kissing wise)
i asked his gf about it she said it was the acohol i told her no it cant ive seen him way more drunk and hes never done that to me or anybody else
ive even been way more drunk than that and i wasnt kissing dudes and trying to grab there dick.
hes also showed me his penis ALOT soft and hard and always makes jokes saying suck my dick all the time.
even when hes not drunk he touches me but not on my dick this time but he used to try to hump me when i was like bent over grabing somthing off the floor and crap its just a bunch of mess and im just really screwed up in the head can someone help me or give me some info on this
also sorry about my typing skills:/