I'm always getting put down? Feel like I'm going to breakdown

[xoxoshal]

Basically idk what to do anymore. I had gotten bullied really bad during Elementary School and it left a stain of insecurity on me. For a whole year I had severe Social Anxiety and would avoid going out of the house or even talking to people or I would get so nervous and begin to sweat. Last Year I had an emotional breakdown that lasted for a couple hours. I never got any counseling for any of the events. Anyways, My insecurities have patched up some but not all the way. My mom, Dad, My moms bf, and everyone around me that isn't my peer is always telling me whats wrong with me. It makes me feel awful. Yesterday m mom said she was done with me because of how "Fucked up I am", I honestly dont know what to do anymore. I'm all out. One day I feel as if I'm going to snap or have another breakdown, what should I do?

[James Dean]

Don't think of yourself this way, it is perfect fine to be upset and vent sometimes. I'm sorry you feel this way and I can relate. This does sound like a tough situation, family issues are some of the hardest to deal with and overcome. In addition to having issues at school, I can understand why you feel hopeless and depressed. The main thing is, I don't want you to put yourself down. Finding something that you are good at or special at is a good start. Family shows unconditional love often, that just means they love you but they usually become overprotective and that is a sign of love.

Writing down your problems, drawing or taking up art to release your expressions is something you can try. Finding people at school you might have similar interests in. If you don't feel comfortable talking to someone, you don't have to talk to them. Just become more open and opportunities aren't just going to come to you. You are going to have to find them yourself. Talk to a counselor at school as a last resort if you are having serious mental health issues and maybe they can assess your situation better.

Coming here and just letting your feelings out is great, so if there is something bothering you, don't be afraid to talk about it. We support you here. :)

[ImagineRepublicCity]

I understand that some people just don't understand what you're going through and that's shit. If you haven't done so yet, a good way to fix these things up is by letting them know what it's like on the receiving end. Example, "XX, can you please stop saying that to me. It's actually making me feel really bad and I just can't handle it. I want to get better, but it's not helping."

Staying assertive is key, and at least if you tell them, things will (hopefully) get better.
If that doesn't work out, try talking to someone, whether it be here or somewhere else. We're not experienced or anything, but talking and venting on here may help. THere are also may professionals as such you can talk to online. I'm not sure what it's like where you live, but here, there are many helplines you can call, e-mail or IM for free, just to talk about things in life whether it be relationships, family issues or personal things.

I believe (like what Charles said) is that you should start doing other things in life. When you start to feel a bit anxious or feel as if you're going to breakdown, while venting may help, a couple of things which could is just stuff like deep breathing, listening to soothing music, drawing/painting, writing it down, closing your eyes and resting; the list goes on. I'm not entirely sure how it works out when you have a crisis, but just trying different methods until you find the right one is the key.

I wish you all the best and just remember that we're here for you and a lot of us are willing to listen and help you out. c: