going nowhere

[CharlieHorse]

My life is going nowhere but downhill. I'm tired just about all the time, and I have no motivation to do anything. As a result, I'm not going to graduate highschool because I've failed too many classes. I can't get myself to do the work, even when I already know all the material. I do fantasticly on tests, but I can't do homework, so i end up failing anyway. I try to find ways to do it. Nothing works.

I don't want anything in life. I don't have any hobbies or interests anymore. I don't want to be a stupid person in this stupid society of other stupid people. For the past 5 years, I have wanted a girlfriend more than anything. Now I know that it's not going to happen. I gave up. Nobody has ever liked me and I don't like anyone. I don't see anyone liking me. I don't even like me. And I hate people too much to accept someone in a relationship.

I know that if i don't graduate, I'll end up poor, working some stupid job to barely stay afloat. I won't be happy like this. If I end up like this there's no doubt I'll end my life. Not a day goes by that I don't think about killing myself.
I'm on the track towards that life i don't want, but I have no energy or motivation to change it. I guess I'm doomed to die like that then.
I just don't like life. But I'm too afraid to do it.
It would hurt my mom, who has already witnessed me almost die, and was practically traumatized by it.

So I guess this is a little part of me asking for help...

[Karkat]

Gosh, I'm so sorry :( I can actually relate to a fair amount of this- not graduating is something that's seriously bugging me right now.

I don't have a lot of advice right now, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here, ok? :hug:

[CharlieHorse]

Gosh, I'm so sorry :( I can actually relate to a fair amount of this- not graduating is something that's seriously bugging me right now.

I don't have a lot of advice right now, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here, ok? :hug:

Thanks Ren :)

[James Dean]

It's fine to vent. I'm sorry to hear about your education issues. School isn't for everyone, but at least graduate high school. You don't have to go to college or anything. Just get yourself a tutor, do extra credit. Find something to motivate yourself. At least get your hs diploma. There are so many people in my family who didn't graduate HS and it's so depressing to me.

I don't believe you when you say you don't have anything you enjoy. There has got to be something. Even if you like the internet, that's still a hobby. :)

Making friends IRL is difficult I do agree. We are always here for you. Just find a hobby that you enjoy. Go up and approach people in your classes and get to know them. Find clubs and groups. Leave your shyness at home, become a butterfly out of a cocoon. Don't say you don't have one, I don't like that attitude, don't give in. That's the easy way out. Keep preserving and be all that you can achieve.

Don't worry. It's gonna be alright. :)

[CharlieHorse]

It's fine to vent. I'm sorry to hear about your education issues. School isn't for everyone, but at least graduate high school. You don't have to go to college or anything. Just get yourself a tutor, do extra credit. Find something to motivate yourself. At least get your hs diploma. There are so many people in my family who didn't graduate HS and it's so depressing to me.

I don't believe you when you say you don't have anything you enjoy. There has got to be something. Even if you like the internet, that's still a hobby. :)

Making friends IRL is difficult I do agree. We are always here for you. Just find a hobby that you enjoy. Go up and approach people in your classes and get to know them. Find clubs and groups. Leave your shyness at home, become a butterfly out of a cocoon. Don't say you don't have one, I don't like that attitude, don't give in. That's the easy way out. Keep preserving and be all that you can achieve.

Don't worry. It's gonna be alright. :)

I don't think I can get myself motivated to graduate. It's such a huge pile of exhaustion and embarrassment and humiliation that I just want to die and not have to live through it and deal with it.

Yes there are things I enjoy. Android, taking pictures of nice cars and learning about them, editing photos in Photoshop, but those are either useless to society or not needed or I'm not good at it enough to be considered over someone else who's better at it than me. If It's useless to everyone than it's useless to me, and a waste of my time.

I'm not shy at all. I start conversations with people all the time. I'm very social, but nobody really likes me anyway. Just about all the friendships I have exist because I hold on to them for too long. Feels like I have a lot of friends but i don't really think I'm friends with anyone.
I'm in a club for graphic design at school, but it's exhausting and I might quit.

I just don't want to live. My life is so meaningless beyond simple little pleasures.

[Mob Boss]

Life is entirely made up of simple little pleasures. Little pleasures are what equate to happiness. It's the big things in life that fuck us up. It's okay to not find pleasure in your education or a prospective career or in another person. Those things might or might not come. But to go ahead and rule yourself out of ever achieving those things, Charlie, that's what's holding you back. You don't know that you won't bump into the love of your life tomorrow then stumble upon a career you will love anymore than you know that you won't.
School -- I don't want to say that is unimportant or completely irrelevant in today's society because that would be a lie. To achieve things as far as wealth and financial stability is concerned, an education is needed the majority of times these days. BUT I will say it is nothing to become so absolutely overwhelmed about. There are millions of people that work minimum wage jobs and manage to make it. I've said this many times that we ultimately choose our happiness. No, we may not choose every situation in our lives that are thrown at us, but you can choose how you resurface from those moments. This is prime time, Charlie, to resurface from this moment in the most positive of ways. So, I agree with above. At least graduate high school. You have already come so far and trudged through all the shitty years of it. What's one more? From there, you decide. Take a year for yourself. Perhaps get a job that will pay bills while you are doing this. Or maybe enter straight into college. Pursue studies that will grant you the education and qualifications for the career that you want. Or don't. You don't have to be a college grad to be something in this world. You are something by being exactly who you are and you need to be honest to who that is. School work is indisputably work. You have to put effort into it. Try and find a way, whichever way that is, to keep yourself motivated. I know it seems impossible, but it can be done.

Relationships -- Think we've discussed both of these issues before. So i might be sounding like I'm repeating myself. I know you have been wanting a girlfriend for a while. That is a desire many, many your age (actually every age) have. Companions are great. But you will not be satisfied just achieving happiness through another person because it will hardly be happiness.Having a girlfriend will not grant you the key to a happy life. And I don't believe for one second you hate everyone. :p You have tooo big of a heart. I know it isnt an empty mansion. And I know it is a lie about the nobody liking you part. You see yourself as this one thing. And this thing happens to be a negative thing because you have low self esteem and think so little of yourself. This will result in this belief that the world around you thinks somewhat similar of you. This is no different to those that think so incredibly highly of themselves that the world is "in love" with them. This fatalist attitude is self-destructive.

You are a young bean sprout. Things will be learned and will become easier to handle. One being this overwhelming sense of doom and gloom about your career. Okay? I'm not going to lie and say everything will be a bowl of cherries. Life can be a real bitch sometimes. But we work through it because we know on the other side are those simple little pleasures. :)

[CharlieHorse]

Life is entirely made up of simple little pleasures. Little pleasures are what equate to happiness. It's the big things in life that fuck us up. It's okay to not find pleasure in your education or a prospective career or in another person. Those things might or might not come. But to go ahead and rule yourself out of ever achieving those things, Charlie, that's what's holding you back. You don't know that you won't bump into the love of your life tomorrow then stumble upon a career you will love anymore than you know that you won't.
School -- I don't want to say that is unimportant or completely irrelevant in today's society because that would be a lie. To achieve things as far as wealth and financial stability is concerned, an education is needed the majority of times these days. BUT I will say it is nothing to become so absolutely overwhelmed about. There are millions of people that work minimum wage jobs and manage to make it. I've said this many times that we ultimately choose our happiness. No, we may not choose every situation in our lives that are thrown at us, but you can choose how you resurface from those moments. This is prime time, Charlie, to resurface from this moment in the most positive of ways. So, I agree with above. At least graduate high school. You have already come so far and trudged through all the shitty years of it. What's one more? From there, you decide. Take a year for yourself. Perhaps get a job that will pay bills while you are doing this. Or maybe enter straight into college. Pursue studies that will grant you the education and qualifications for the career that you want. Or don't. You don't have to be a college grad to be something in this world. You are something by being exactly who you are and you need to be honest to who that is. School work is indisputably work. You have to put effort into it. Try and find a way, whichever way that is, to keep yourself motivated. I know it seems impossible, but it can be done.

Relationships -- Think we've discussed both of these issues before. So i might be sounding like I'm repeating myself. I know you have been wanting a girlfriend for a while. That is a desire many, many your age (actually every age) have. Companions are great. But you will not be satisfied just achieving happiness through another person because it will hardly be happiness.Having a girlfriend will not grant you the key to a happy life. And I don't believe for one second you hate everyone. :p You have tooo big of a heart. I know it isnt an empty mansion. And I know it is a lie about the nobody liking you part. You see yourself as this one thing. And this thing happens to be a negative thing because you have low self esteem and think so little of yourself. This will result in this belief that the world around you thinks somewhat similar of you. This is no different to those that think so incredibly highly of themselves that the world is "in love" with them. This fatalist attitude is self-destructive.

You are a young bean sprout. Things will be learned and will become easier to handle. One being this overwhelming sense of doom and gloom about your career. Okay? I'm not going to lie and say everything will be a bowl of cherries. Life can be a real bitch sometimes. But we work through it because we know on the other side are those simple little pleasures. :)

I know this. I know I can feel happy and I know what i should do. I know I'll find someone when the time comes, and I know that i can find purpose in life and succeed.
But I just don't feel it. I know it all, but I just can't believe it. I wish I could force my beliefs and thoughts to be geared towards good things, but I just can't. Any push I make always ends up back where I was before or worse. My mind is just so worn out from all the horrible thoughts I've ever thought, and I just want to be rid of this. I'm feel so hopeless.

I'm sorry for whining about a relationship again. I don't disregard your advice. I take it to heart, but again, i just don't believe it. My core is just sad, and there's no real way to fix it it seems. My drugs aren't doing anything.
All I know is that in the week when Kate and I were close, practically a couple, were the happiest moments of my life. I have since forgot that week and being with her because it was wrong. I regret being that close to her, but at the same time, I was happy.
Maybe my entire perspective of love is wrong. God I'm so tired i can't make a logical paragraph.

I feel bad because I know you put a lot of effort into writing this so sincerely and being so thoughtful and caring when I'm just too stubborn to be helped.
I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

[Mob Boss]

I know this. I know I can feel happy and I know what i should do. I know I'll find someone when the time comes, and I know that i can find purpose in life and succeed.
But I just don't feel it. I know it all, but I just can't believe it. I wish I could force my beliefs and thoughts to be geared towards good things, but I just can't. Any push I make always ends up back where I was before or worse. My mind is just so worn out from all the horrible thoughts I've ever thought, and I just want to be rid of this. I'm feel so hopeless.

I'm sorry for whining about a relationship again. I don't disregard your advice. I take it to heart, but again, i just don't believe it. My core is just sad, and there's no real way to fix it it seems. My drugs aren't doing anything.
All I know is that in the week when Kate and I were close, practically a couple, were the happiest moments of my life. I have since forgot that week and being with her because it was wrong. I regret being that close to her, but at the same time, I was happy.
Maybe my entire perspective of love is wrong. God I'm so tired i can't make a logical paragraph.

I feel bad because I know you put a lot of effort into writing this so sincerely and being so thoughtful and caring when I'm just too stubborn to be helped.
I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.


Hey, you goof :) I don't care if i've given you advice before. Sometimes it just doesn't help or you are at a point, like now, where nothing but time can really aid in your feelings. Stop saying sorry. There is nothing to be sorry for. :) It's okay to not be okay and also to not particularly want help. That's perfectly fine. I just don't want you so lost in your sadness because nobody deserves that and you are such an amazing person, bean.

Relationships can be utter shit and it sucks you don't have a girlfriend yet. I know you want one. And school. The work sucks too. Let me tell you, I still don't have my ass in gear. Had a psychology quiz due at 11:59 pm tonight and forgot up unti about half an hour before the deadline. I didn't study at all and cheated on the entire thing and STILL ENDED UP WITH A 75. xD See? I'm 20 and don't have my shit together. I guess it ultimately depends on the person. I know the things you are going through feel like these paramount issues, and right now they are. I'm not going to downgrade the severity of these problems and how they make you feel. Because obviously how you feel is very shitty. ANd that is just how it is sometimes. Maybe do the little things that make you happy until you get through this storm. *huggles*

[CharlieHorse]

I'm starting to think about the future. I'm not on track for graduation. I doubt I'll pass my classes.
I'm just sort of holding on, and waiting for the worst to be over. I feel like I cant do anything.
I'm worried I'll give up and do something bad to myself.

[Caver]

I feel exactly the same! And have felt this way for years, and slowly failing classes. :( it sucks, it's difficult that we don't know how to overcome it but i'm here if you want a chat whenever

[James Dean]

I'm starting to think about the future. I'm not on track for graduation. I doubt I'll pass my classes.
I'm just sort of holding on, and waiting for the worst to be over. I feel like I cant do anything.
I'm worried I'll give up and do something bad to myself.

But you won't. That's just defeatist attitude. It isn't time to quit or stop. Don't be like that, you still have lots of work to do. It is so easy to make excuses. They don't mean anything.

Just take a break for now. Don't quit, that's such a strong word. It might take you a few times but you are a winner and you can achieving anything you want. If you quit and stop, give up and make excuses, nothing will be accomplished. I support you and we all support you. You just need love, stay strong please. :)

[CharlieHorse]

But you won't. That's just defeatist attitude. It isn't time to quit or stop. Don't be like that, you still have lots of work to do. It is so easy to make excuses. They don't mean anything.

Just take a break for now. Don't quit, that's such a strong word. It might take you a few times but you are a winner and you can achieving anything you want. If you quit and stop, give up and make excuses, nothing will be accomplished. I support you and we all support you. You just need love, stay strong please. :)

I just don't feel any reason to accomplish anything. I don't want anything in life except a few material things. I don't want to go to college or get a job or deal with all the stupid little humans on this dumb planet. No offense.
I just kind of don't want to live, but I am amused by enough petty things to keep my unintelligent brain occupied. Life feels like a waste. :(

[DeadEyes]

All of our lives is going somewhere: towards dead end, the unavoidable death. Slower or faster we all end up in the same place anyway so all of this doesn't matter. We can hang on for a while, but while you're struggling to stay alive, the irony of life might hit you in the face (or a car for that matter) and kill you anyway but while we're around we might as well try and have a good time, live everday as if it were your last, as they say.

[CharlieHorse]

All of our lives is going somewhere: towards dead end, the unavoidable death. Slower or faster we all end up in the same place anyway so all of this doesn't matter. We can hang on for a while, but while you're struggling to stay alive, the irony of life might hit you in the face (or a car for that matter) and kill you anyway but while we're around we might as well try and have a good time, live everday as if it were your last, as they say.

Thank you for editing this post.

[DeadEyes]

Thank you for editing this post.

Ha, the only reason why I did, is because it was going to get deleted otherwise.

[CharlieHorse]

Ha, the only reason why I did, is because it was going to get deleted otherwise.

Not because it implied that people shouldn't try to stay alive, which is kind of bad?

[DeadEyes]

Not because it implied that people shouldn't try to stay alive, which is kind of bad?

Hence why it would have been deleted, I had to find something positive to add so it doesn't happen (I do believe what I said though).

[CharlieHorse]

I'm worried I might start thinking about suicide.
I was hoping I would never seriously consider it because I know it's bad, but I really don't see my life or myself getting any better.

[DeadEyes]

I'm worried I might start thinking about suicide.
I was hoping I would never seriously consider it because I know it's bad, but I really don't see my life or myself getting any better.

I'll start by saying something that I know is not helpful but why assume it's bad? I don't see anything wrong with suicide personally but, the best way is to not think about it yeah, because if you sit down and just start reflecting about it then you're stuck, got to take your mind off it.

[Cognizant]

I think the easiest way to start improving on this is being open with people about what's troubling you in your life. Now I'm not accusing you of being closed about that stuff, because I don't know you personally and for all I know you could be telling everyone you cross paths with that you're depressed and suicidal. But if you don't tell people these things (more specifically, friends or adults you can trust), it can lead to people to believe that you're okay and that you don't exactly need help.

That's what happened to this kid named Cameron at my school two weeks ago - his suicide was so unexpected and out of the blue because, to everyone, he seemed really happy - he had a blast during the homecoming week beforehand, was a great basketball player, and had plenty of friends. But then I walk into school on Tuesday and everyone's crying because Cam killed himself, and he never once gave people a hint as to why.

Knowing that people were there to help me and genuinely cared about me really helped me get passed my parents divorce. It made me feel like my life was worth living, and what do you know? There may be rough spots in my life but I'm happy to be here!
If you ever wanna chat, you know where to find me, Charlie. :)

[mrmee]

The best thing about rock bottom is that there is nowhere to go but up.

[CharlieHorse]

I think the easiest way to start improving on this is being open with people about what's troubling you in your life. Now I'm not accusing you of being closed about that stuff, because I don't know you personally and for all I know you could be telling everyone you cross paths with that you're depressed and suicidal. But if you don't tell people these things (more specifically, friends or adults you can trust), it can lead to people to believe that you're okay and that you don't exactly need help.

That's what happened to this kid named Cameron at my school two weeks ago - his suicide was so unexpected and out of the blue because, to everyone, he seemed really happy - he had a blast during the homecoming week beforehand, was a great basketball player, and had plenty of friends. But then I walk into school on Tuesday and everyone's crying because Cam killed himself, and he never once gave people a hint as to why.

Knowing that people were there to help me and genuinely cared about me really helped me get passed my parents divorce. It made me feel like my life was worth living, and what do you know? There may be rough spots in my life but I'm happy to be here!
If you ever wanna chat, you know where to find me, Charlie. :)

You're right. I am closed. I need to open up. Maybe it's a little late to have that do any good right now...

I didn't know the guy. But you're right, it's sad that things can go unnoticed and unhelped.

Thanks :)

The best thing about rock bottom is that there is nowhere to go but up.

there's always the option of staying down there forever...


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I'm starting to feel depersonalized, or maybe derealized.
I looked up those disorders and they seem pretty similar to how I feel.
"Emotional or physical numbness of your senses or responses to the world around you"
"A sense that your memories lack emotion, and that they may or may not be your own memories"
"Feelings that you're an outside observer of your thoughts, feelings, your body or parts of your body, perhaps as if you were floating in air above yourself"

"Feeling emotionally disconnected from people you care about, as if you were separated by a glass wall"
"Distortions in perception of time, such as recent events feeling like distant past"

but it seems that in the moment, i don't feel this way. When i force my mind to do something, i overthink, and start thinking this way. I quickly get depressed.

I also feel like no matter what I do in my life, i'll never really be happy or satisfied when it's quiet and i'm thinking. I see myself get distracted by all the fun little things and amuse me at the time, but when i look back, i feel like i was stupid for those feelings. I realize that i can't stay happy, and that i have no real purpose in my life except to fulfill basic human needs.
That's why i don't really care about graduating. The only thing that i worry about in not graduating is being ridiculed by others and being seen as an idiot. And i also fear my parents hating me, and being a burden.
I don't really want anything in life. I don't know why i'm here.

It seems i don't care to foresee consequences, good or bad. Doing so makes me feel like there's no point in life. I'm stuck in the moment. Maybe that's why i like music so much. Because it's continuous and repetitive. Short enough to hold my attention. It's compacted continuous predictable drugs that take me out of whatever thoughts i'll be in.

And so when i feel depressed, i feel like dying, but i don't want to because then i wouldn't be able to be entertained by little things temporarily and i wont be able to fulfill those basic human needs.

i just want someone other than me in my head. someone with control and realness.

[CharlieHorse]

I've come to the realization that I've screwed up. I never got my shit together. I never succeeded in changing my life. As a result I've failed. I won't be graduating high school. I need to start looking for cheap jobs if I want to eat food. I don't know how long I'll be able to live like this.
I suppose I brought all this upon myself. I don't have anyone to blame but me.

When I first developed depression, I made a scale with percentages of how much I enjoyed life to how much I wanted to die. Back then it was 80-100 percent good.
now it's about 55.
Come a year from now. I'm kicked out of the house. I have no friends. I'm looking for or currently work at a job that has no vision for a career. Barely scraping by.
My life will be over then. I imagine in situations like those my percent will be closer to 20.
I never thought that I would be someone who would seriously consider suicide. I used to be the person telling others why suicide isn't the answer. Now, not so much. What a surprising plot twist in life. Irony.
I worry that one day I'll post on here saying goodbye and I'll go try to find a way to put myself into a hospital or end everything.
It seems like the only things that hold me back are the few people that love me, food, and the small funny things that bring a 2 second smile to my face. No future or care for much else. This is not enough to base my life off of, but if that's all I have in my mind, then I guess it's not going to last long.

Human instinct is keeping me alive.

[CharlieHorse]

I keep repeating the same shit over and over again in different voices. Sorry for wasting space on the server.

[DeadEyes]

I keep repeating the same shit over and over again in different voices. Sorry for wasting space on the server.

There is much worse waste of space around here let me tell you that, you are free to speak your mind on your situation and no one should stop you from doing that.

Human instinct is keeping me alive.

The survival instinct is very strong, once it faded away you're in danger.

The best thing about rock bottom is that there is nowhere to go but up.

It can always get worse.

[Melkor]

Ummm, tbh I have a similar problem, I was a hard working student and my marks were quite high but this year which I should be graduating, my marks are really low due to my depression. I ended up in the hospital because of attempted suicide and they kept me there for a while cuz they thought I might attempt it again but as you said I also have precious things in life that kept me from taking my own life. About the education piece; I am taking a fifth year in high school and I dropped the courses the I was doing bad at due to my problem and basically I reduced my work load. I have no one to thank for except my closest friend and my guidance consular for suggesting it so I can get into the university that I want. So tbh as other fellow VT users suggested be open about your depression: tell your family doctor, consular or anyone who cares about you. As you know depression is an illness of civilization and it is not only mental; it also has a lot of physical stuff contributing to it. Therefore, you should reach out and find help through your family doctor. Believe me Charlie, you are not alone and we care for you here. Hang in there and remember there is a solution to every problem and as Dylan Thomas said" Rage, rage against the dying of the light."

[CharlieHorse]

Ummm, tbh I have a similar problem, I was a hard working student and my marks were quite high but this year which I should be graduating, my marks are really low due to my depression. I ended up in the hospital because of attempted suicide and they kept me there for a while cuz they thought I might attempt it again but as you said I also have precious things in life that kept me from taking my own life. About the education piece; I am taking a fifth year in high school and I dropped the courses the I was doing bad at due to my problem and basically I reduced my work load. I have no one to thank for except my closest friend and my guidance consular for suggesting it so I can get into the university that I want. So tbh as other fellow VT users suggested be open about your depression: tell your family doctor, consular or anyone who cares about you. As you know depression is an illness of civilization and it is not only mental; it also has a lot of physical stuff contributing to it. Therefore, you should reach out and find help through your family doctor. Believe me Charlie, you are not alone and we care for you here. Hang in there and remember there is a solution to every problem and as Dylan Thomas said" Rage, rage against the dying of the light."

This surprisingly made me feel a lot better.
Thank you.

[RJx_Writer]

I'm in a very similar situation as you, but I don't have depression, in fact I'm insanely joyful and energetic. But I have the same thing where I can't seem to get myself to do homework because I just don't have the will to do it, and yet I ace the tests. I also have always been single, and that really is tough to deal with. The loneliness and feeling that no girl could ever like you. Damages the self esteem. The problem for me is stress, not depression, though I do become depressed sometimes. But I know exactly the situation you're in, because I had depression myself for two years until only recently it went away. But I tell you, graduate high school. Don't drop out, that will only leave you even worse than before. What you need to do is give yourself a long term career goal. You know what keeps me going in school? My dream of being a physicist or cosmologist. Give yourself a career goal, and whenever you feel like giving up, tell yourself, "Hey, don't you want to be a______? You can't do that if you give up."

Now I got out of depression on my own, I didn't get any help from anyone else except myself, the Internet, and books on psychology. I have done years of personal research on psychology. I know all about the disorders, what causes them, and how you can treat them, but I know most about depression. I probably know as much as a psychiatrist does on mental disorders. So now did I get out of depression? I'll you what I did, as well all the other treatments I know. Everything I will tell you is essential, and they are in no particular order.

And I know you say you're not interested in any hobbies, well you need hobbies. Yes, depression makes us lose interest in everything, and we don't feel like doing anything. But the best way to get yourself out of depression is to put your mind onto something else other than your sorrows. This is essential. Find a hobby, any hobby. Learn to play an instrument, guitar, piano, whatever. Read more for sure, that'll put your mind to something and make you smarter. Also, listen to music more, music has been scientifically proven to significantly affect mood. Upbeat, joyful music. Like classic rock or blues, but nothing slow and sad like classical. Just don't listen to it all day, maybe just in the mornings or something, otherwise your mind will just get used to it.

Now this here is the most essential. Exercise. Exercise has also been scientifically proven to significantly boost your mood, self esteem, confidence, and energy. In fact, many depression patients have reported being cured after simply jogging thirty minutes a day for one month. No medication or therapy was given, just thirty minutes of jogging. Any exercise will work, as long as it gets your mind onto something else. Not only does exercise boost the mood by making you focus on something else, but also by the adrenaline and hormones produced as a result of exercise boost your mood. And the sense of accomplishment achieved after exercising releases endorphins that also boost your mood.

Another thing? Get more sunlight. Exposure to the sun produces Vitamin D3 in our bodies, which is required for humans to retain homeostasis(balance) of biochemicals in the brain. Depression is an inbalance of the chemicals in our brain that our meant to keep our mood slightly elevated. Simply getting more sunlight can help to balance these chemicals and bring you a leap closer to being cured.

Vitamin D3 is not the only vitamin that helps maintain chemical balance in the brain. Any deficiency of a vitamin or mineral will cause your brain's chemicals to become inbalanced. The best and possibly the only way to fix this is to eat healthy. Eating healthy food such as fruits and vegetables, fresh meat, starches, and grains will boost your mood. Many of the foods that are considered healthy contain certain nutrients that elevate the mood and give feelings of well being. Starches are high in carbohydrates, which are essential for your body to produce energy, so thus eating more starches will make you more energetic which will elevate your mood and give the will to do things. Some examples of starches are pasta, potatoes, and bread.

But most importantly, see a professional. While he will tell you to do all the the things I just told you, he will also be able to perscribe you anti depressants and provide you with therapy. Simply making an appointment with a psychiatrist/psychologist will put you onto the short path to being cured. Just sharing your feelings with others helps to cope with depression. I was able to get out of depression on my own using these techniques , so so can you. But seeing a professional will get rid of the depression faster and he can help to make sure it doesn't come back. There is a lot of advice that a professional can give you that I simply don't know. But trust me, you can get through this.

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Hi Charlie, the first thing I would like to say is that I'm glad you're still holding on, and I really hope you're glad that you're holding on. I know you might be thinking that I don't genuinely care, But I want you to be happy and I want you to live an amazing life. I understand what it feels like now, and I know you feel like you don't have any motivation to do anything which makes you feel empty and hopeless and depressed. And when you feel all this you just think, 'I can't do it anymore, I don't have any more strength'. But I believe that you're not as hopeless as you feel, and you can do it and you have strength, because that is what is fuelling you to keep going and keep trying. I know it's exhausting, and I know everyone tells you that you can get through this so I'm going to be one of those people to tell you, you can get through this. We don't say it because we want to give you false hope, we say it because we believe you can. Even though it doesn't feel worth it, keep holding on. Do it for you, yeah? ~~~