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Remora
October 4th, 2014, 03:30 PM
So okay, Ruben is the cute and slightly small classmate that i have the most desperate crush ever on. He has beautiful (really, a little bit of heaven) brown eyes and a smile that makes everyone melt. He's a bit of a shy kid in school- that is, he doesn't talk much and when he talks, he lacks in volume. I took small steps towards getting to know him and i think Friday was when i really "befriended" him. From sitting next to him in art history and becoming his partner in PE, i finally got the courage to start bothering him over WhatsApp after school at Friday, using him getting the art history homework wrong as an excuse.

I sent him the homework and then i went realistic-ish and just asked him "Do you mind i sat next to you at art history" and he said he did not, so i apologized for asking and being myself.

The day after that i pointed out that he could sit next to another classmate in philosophy. He proceeded to do so and i told him "Now you're not by yourself anymore c:" over our phones.

The school break after that day (that would be two days ago) i sent him a simple message out of pure boredom; "c:". He responded with a question mark and i told him "I don't know, boredom :c", then my phone disconnected from the Internet for some reason. When i returned home i saw that he replied "Oh ok", so i apologized (once again) and said "i just guess i'm 'kind of' bad at being human :c"
The same day, i accidentally sent him a message, "Do you still need it on paper?" (which i was supposed to send to another classmate), resulting in a little talk about how their avatars looked similar, all unimportant.

That evening i apologized once again, "for what just happened and before", asking him why he was wasting his time on me, him replying "not like i have anything better to do anyways".

This was my opportunity to get to know him better. I asked him "What do you usually do?" and he started telling about how he loves using GM:Studio to make games and sometimes snippets of C++. I proceeded to shake some examples off of him (he's surprisingly nice!) and he then gave me a little lesson on the magical land of Game Maker.

I proceeded onto my own game- i was considering making one to tell him my feelings (which would have been a good way i think ;~;) whilst he was still guiding me trough and explaining things. I was so pumped during all of this! I mean, it looked like my crush and i were befriending each other!

I knew that making games wasn't so much my style- i mean, i enjoyed it, but i enjoyed playing them better. So the day after (one day ago) i asked him if he liked playing any games. He named a few and said there was one game he'd really like to have but he didn't have the money for it.

I decided to play good guy and it was one way to get his trust (he seemed very self-conscious) so i bought me and him a copy of the game (Magicite) on Steam and we jumped into it immediately. We'd been playing it all that afternoon, then finally him saying he had to go to sleep and me leaving my PC shortly after resulting in our session being brought to an end.

That night the game updated twice and the morning after (which is today) i messaged him again. "Hey, are you planning on playing it with me again? It updated twice!", after which i had to go play badminton.
When i returned, he had replied and it had only been two minutes since he replied, so i told him i was ready too and we jumped into the game again.

Just the two of us wasn't fun enough. We needed two more players to play with, so i looked around on the fora and bumped into a pair of players that was also looking. We had a Skype group conversation and i was hosting the server, but when Ruben tried to connect he couldn't. I said "if only Ruben would get his ass in the server" on the group convo. He replied shortly after "my ass isn't working". Me being the idiot i am said "Let me fix it" and only realized shortly after what i just said. He replied "yes fix it". I started joining in and said "alright lets fix some ass". We didn't manage to fix the connection errors and i said "no asses to be fixed here", to which Ruben replied again "aww, i wanted to get my ass fixed." I told him i'd gladly fix his ass anytime he wanted me to, again, jokingly. To add on to my idiocy i asked him "What size of tools would you like me to use" and he answered "the biggest ones"

Holy crap. Are we already this comfortable with each other or is he trying to signal me something? ;~; i'm so confused right now!

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Last night when we were still playing Magicite, my sister told me it was half past 11 PM and that i should go to sleep. So i just went to my room and dove into my bed with my phone, chatting over WhatsApp, eventually saying it was good to be friendless sometimes because i could just go to sleep without them messaging me .

And he told me, "You're not friendless." I responded with a question mark and he sent a blushing emoticon, after which we just had an epic conversation using only emoji.

I'm not sure wether i've been friendzoned or something, but i'm really glad he said that! Yay! ^.^

Living For Love
October 4th, 2014, 04:24 PM
I think you need to take a deep breath and analyse things slowly. Maybe because you're so attached to him, you think every detail is important, but I don't think you should over react so much. I guess he really enjoyed the fact you bought the game for him after he had told you he had no money to afford it, so that was really nice and kind of you, I guess the friendship you had with him improved a lot with that step, so it's an accomplishment, and you're going in the right way.

About all that "ass talk", I'm pretty sure he was just joking about it, it didn't really mean nothing, and it would be highly recommended if you found out about his sexuality and his views on other's sexuality first before actually going straight to the point, if you know what I mean. He obviously feels a bit more comfortable with you right now, but you shouldn't take it for granted. Proceed slowly and let things take its natural path. It would be nice as well if you guys could interact more in "real life" rather than only through text messaging, Skype calls and in-game chats, but it's just a matter of time till you two are more comfortable with each other to do it more often.

CosmicNoodle
October 4th, 2014, 04:27 PM
I think you need to take a deep breath and analyse things slowly. Maybe because you're so attached to him, you think every detail is important, but I don't think you should over react so much. I guess he really enjoyed the fact you bought the game for him after he had told you he had no money to afford it, so that was really nice and kind of you, I guess the friendship you had with him improved a lot with that step, so it's an accomplishment, and you're going in the right way.

About all that "ass talk", I'm pretty sure he was just joking about it, it didn't really mean nothing, and it would be highly recommended if you found out about his sexuality and his views on other's sexuality first before actually going straight to the point, if you know what I mean. He obviously feels a bit more comfortable with you right now, but you shouldn't take it for granted. Proceed slowly and let things take its natural path. It would be nice as well if you guys could interact more in "real life" rather than only through text messaging, Skype calls and in-game chats, but it's just a matter of time till you two are more comfortable with each other to do it more often.

Exactly what DITD said, couldn't have said it better.
Interact with him IRL, ouside of school, not just in school and over the internet, try doing tuings on the weekends. And be carefull, don't get your hopes up to high, he may be starght for all you know. Or could even have a poor outlook on homosexuality.

Like he said, because you like him so much you may very well be over thinking the situation.

Remora
October 5th, 2014, 12:58 AM
It would be nice as well if you guys could interact more in "real life" rather than only through text messaging, Skype calls and in-game chats, but it's just a matter of time till you two are more comfortable with each other to do it more often.

I'm really afraid i'll run out of things to discuss with him and it'll be awkward :c
Last night, when i said not having friends is good sometimes because i was trying to sleep, he said "You're not friendless c:" and then we were just spamming emoji and i was so happy yay ^^