punching myself

[deadpie]

So I guess I had slipped a few times this year with cutting, but ever since I've moved I have been doing it much more often and even punching myself in the face. I feel like my urges to hurt myself are only getting stronger and this self hatred has gotten worse with time being that I've had depression for as long as I can look back on my life. I'll be outside and in public, get angry at myself and just start hitting myself. It's gotten to the point where the phrase "I just want to beat the shit out of myself" is actually literal and happens all the time.

I don't even know what to do. You can throw sharp objects away (which I've tried to do, but then I notice I have keys), but am I supposed to just cut my hands off now? It's a natural response to how much I hate myself.

[Karkat]

I have problems with this as well. It's sometimes hard for me to remember the last time I self-harmed/acknowledge that I'm doing it, because I've been hitting myself (hard) or punching walls until my knuckles get skinned since I was little.

[TheN3rdyOutcast]

I used to do that, once so hard that I nearly blacked out.

[CosmicNoodle]

I used to do that, once so hard that I nearly blacked out.

Reminds me of the time I slamed my head into a wall out of anger and woke up 15 mins later in an ambulance :P

[Dark_Desires]

I had a similar issue to this when i was a child as in Punching myself and smashing my head into walls
To the point i either broke the wall or should have been knocked out but nope extreme pain tolerance.

If its a real issue i would recommend talking to your doctor about it and maybe seek medication
It helped me until i could work out some of my anger issues.Not sure if any of this helpful but i hope it is.

[Broken Toy]

What? I always thought it was normal to head butt walls. Doesn't everyone do it when there angry?

[James Dean]

I don't usually hurt my body, I mean yeah I remember one time, I was angry that a teacher sent me to detention because I was thirty seconds late for the tardy bell, I was talking with my friend and his class was on the other side of the school so it was a long walk and I was "late", so I banged my head on my desk in frustration. But time to time, I kick walls and doors and stuff. I guess it's a form a self harm we don't notice a lot.