Sometimes I Just Want To Die

[Uranus]

Even though you guys may not know. IV been depressed alot and I can't focus, think, or even do anything. Sometimes I hate myself. Sometimes I feel like a fuckup. Like I am worthless, but then get positive thoughts and think I was stupid for the thoughts. Then they come back. I want to cut myself sometimes but I know if I did I'd be in major shit. Sometimes I don't even want to live and there's no one I can talk to...well I can talk to some...but they can't help.. There's only a handful of things keeping me going. I'm probably overreacting but I am so fucking stressed out! Last night I was close to crying. I don't know what to do...

I'm usually giving help rather than receiving. I rarely ask...so....please help ..
I honestly don't know what to do

[unknownuser]

Don’t be afraid to cry and let it all out; nothing to be ashamed of. It does help.

Having someone you can vent to, either in real life or online is super helpful. I’m so thankful for those people here that have taken the time to just listen and hear me out when I was having issues. Getting that load off your chest helps- tremendously.

Focus on the positives as best as you can, surround yourself with good people, find things to do that you enjoy. Setbacks are unavoidable, but you have to accept them and learn to overcome them; know that it doesn't stay bad forever. The longer you stay and dwell on them, the harder you make it for yourself.

And please do not turn to any sort of self-harm, once you start, it can be very hard to stop.

[Uranus]

Don’t be afraid to cry and let it all out; nothing to be ashamed of. It does help.

Having someone you can vent to, either in real life or online is super helpful. I’m so thankful for those people here that have taken the time to just listen and hear me out when I was having issues. Getting that load off your chest helps- tremendously.

Focus on the positives as best as you can, surround yourself with good people, find things to do that you enjoy. Setbacks are unavoidable, but you have to accept them and learn to overcome them; know that it doesn't stay bad forever. The longer you stay and dwell on them, the harder you make it for yourself.

And please do not turn to any sort of self-harm, once you start, it can be very hard to stop.

Bit you don't know what I'm going through and how much my family is going to have to rely on me. I'm going to have to do alot of stuff when I turn 18. Not like college, house,job ECT. I will have to do alot if shit in order to keep my family safe, cared for, ECT. And my gf's family too, because of her dad divorcing her mom. I'm going to have to do alot. I'm an only child. She has a few siblings but one is probably going to jail forever for stupidity and her sister is not responsible. And her younger siblings are not even 8. I'll have to provide money for my grandparents, parents, gf's family, me and my gf, and a child at 18. Plus my gf is stressed out for living at her dads for over a month and he doesn't give a living shit about her. So she's been down, which hurts me... ITS ALL STRESSING ME OUT TO THE POINT I CAN'T SLEEP!

[Uranus]

Plus my parents aren't wealthy and same for grandparents. And ger moms on minimum wage

[unknownuser]

Bit you don't know what I'm going through and how much my family is going to have to rely on me. I'm going to have to do alot of stuff when I turn 18. Not like college, house,job ECT. I will have to do alot if shit in order to keep my family safe, cared for, ECT. And my gf's family too, because of her dad divorcing her mom. I'm going to have to do alot. I'm an only child. She has a few siblings but one is probably going to jail forever for stupidity and her sister is not responsible. And her younger siblings are not even 8. I'll have to provide money for my grandparents, parents, gf's family, me and my gf, and a child at 18. Plus my gf is stressed out for living at her dads for over a month and he doesn't give a living shit about her. So she's been down, which hurts me... ITS ALL STRESSING ME OUT TO THE POINT I CAN'T SLEEP!

Plus my parents aren't wealthy and same for grandparents. And ger moms on minimum wage

You're right, I wouldn't get it, I'm not in your position.

Why will you be obligated to help everyone? It's not exactly your responsibility to suffer and carry such a load because of the mistakes of others. Sorry if that's blunt, but you can help them out, you just shouldn't need to completely burden yourself and take such responsibility upon yourself. It's impossible for you to take care of and satisfy everyone, especially financially, at 18. You are 15 now, still a ways to go until 18, you don't know what can change till then.

[DeadEyes]

In my case, it's not just sometimes.