NikosamA98
September 28th, 2014, 06:06 PM
I'm fucking tired of everything. I'm tired of my dad fighting all the time with his partner, she is like my mom, and it fucking kills me when they fight, when there's no way to fix things because my dad won't change. What does he want? How can he be happy? How could I make him happy? I'm totally sure the relationship will end tonight since they had a huge fight today. I was there with my stepsister, we talked but she is just tired and hurt. What the fuck do I do if I live that shit and when I come back to my house I have to clean stuff that my mom just "couldn't". I hate it, I just want things to go normal and I want problems to get fixed, but instead there is just chaos everywhere I look. I have no safe place, even my mom is in my room right now and I'm in a corner in the house entry. Is like to have someone to talk to but everyone must be tired of this shit, and the only person that I've never told a single thing of what's happening in my life was my best friend, and I don't talk to him. I feel trapped, there's no fucking way out. I just want to fight with someone or break things. I hate it, and I don't care if no one reads. No one cares anyway. I wish I could change things but I can't. It is what it is. I love my dad and I love HER, but if they're gonna be fighting every fucking time I'd rather watch them separated. I don't know what my dad's gonna do and it scares me to think of his future and mine, and then there's my mom. J treated her like shit today and I'm sorry, but with the house in this state and all these things in my head I just can't keep calmed. This is the only place I can feel free and even now I feel like shit. I'm sorry people of the VT chat, I know I've been talking this stuff too much over there and that's not the right place, and I know this is exhausting. I'm sorry.
Right now I just want to run away from home and go to my friend's house. I'm tired, I need someone to talk to and someone to cry with but there's no one.
Posts merged. Next time, please use the "Edit" button. ~Elysium
Right now I just want to run away from home and go to my friend's house. I'm tired, I need someone to talk to and someone to cry with but there's no one.
Posts merged. Next time, please use the "Edit" button. ~Elysium