[TRIGGER WARNING] Cutting: Do you carve words?

[CosmicNoodle]

When I'm cutting oiften I cave words, for instance I have the term "fuck up" carved into my leg and I've never heard of anyone else doing this, does anyone else cut words into themselves.....OK after writing out what I did I kind of realised how twisted that is....geez...

[Karkat]

D:

I've never really cut (I usually burn or hit myself), so no, but I do have the tendency to write out things on my arms like "stupid" or "worthless" sometimes.

[Magenta]

I used to until I realised everyone would one day see what I "wrote" once I felt comfortable enough to show my scars. I stopped rather quickly.

[Hideous]

Call me weird but when I used to cut, I would cut crosses on my forearm and idk why I did (I am extremely sorry if that triggered anyone or if it was unnecessary for me to say that).

[Dying Ember]

When I'm cutting oiften I cave words, for instance I have the term "fuck up" carved into my leg and I've never heard of anyone else doing this, does anyone else cut words into themselves.....OK after writing out what I did I kind of realised how twisted that is....geez...

I'm pretty sure other people do it. I personally don't altough I have traced words before (not actually properly cut)
I sound weird saying that

[TheN3rdyOutcast]

I carved a hashtag into my arm, because I felt like such a loser for being left out of things like social media.

[CosmicNoodle]

I carved a hashtag into my arm, because I felt like such a loser for being left out of things like social media.

Since making this thread I've only just realised how disturbed a person has to be to take a blade and carv words and symbols intoi themselves.

[Broken Toy]

I carved a tally chart of 9 for the number of months ive had feelings for a girl (or as i call it, where the shit began to hit the fan). The problem is i really did do it neat and didn't want to cut over it and ruin it (now i sound like a psychopath, great) so i just did a few tally chart 9s around.

[TheN3rdyOutcast]

Since making this thread I've only just realised how disturbed a person has to be to take a blade and carv words and symbols intoi themselves.

Yep XP. I was a sick little fuck when I did that. But it's about the worst that I've done.

[Karkat]

Since making this thread I've only just realised how disturbed a person has to be to take a blade and carv words and symbols intoi themselves.

Yeah. I've set lit matches on my skin and left them until I couldn't stand it, so I feel right at home.

It's actually pretty depressing what a lot of us have done to ourselves.

[Luminous]

I've added [TRIGGER WARNING] to the title because this can be a very sensitive topic for many people.

I've carved "UGLY" into my skin, but it didn't leave a scar after it healed. I never cut any more words or anything.

[Seafood]

I don't know about you guys but sometimes get a price of paper and scribble words and 'cuts'. I write stuff such as worthless and loser and all that for about an hour or so a few times a week.

[Gigablue]

I never cut. Burning was my main method of self harm, and it's not as easy to burn something into your skin. That being said, I was always terrified of having scars, so the last thing I wanted to do was leave something permanent. A few times, I scratched words into my skin with my nails, but I knew they wouldn't scar.

[Karkat]

I don't know about you guys but sometimes get a price of paper and scribble words and 'cuts'. I write stuff such as worthless and loser and all that for about an hour or so a few times a week.

I don't do that in such high frequency, but I do sometimes.

[Babs]

I did once, but I didn't really care for that back when I cut.

[Dalcourt]

When I'm self harming...I do a lot of different things usually I prefer burning myself over cutting...when I cut I sometimes carve words or sometimes symbols but usually I don't cut deep enough to make the permanent scars. I have one permanent scar, it's my mother's name and I wanted this one to stay...otherwise I wouldn't want this words on my skin forever.

I hope I didn't trigger anyone.

[CosmicNoodle]

Yeah. I've set lit matches on my skin and left them until I couldn't stand it, so I feel right at home.

It's actually pretty depressing what a lot of us have done to ourselves.

It is, I ended up doing it again today...in class......in the middle of fucking maths class.....I took a compas and carved the term "fuck up" into my arm, I was forced to stop by the teacher when it started to freak people out, meaning I only got through letters F, U and C. I forgot my medication so I wad kind of drifiting and didnt realise it would freak people out.

I've only cut once, and I didn't break skin. I wrote "UGLY" on my thigh, as well as just some lines and stuff. It was over a year ago now, and I don't have the scars anymore. I decided not to cut again because I figured that I can pretend I'm well if I don't have any physical scars to prove otherwise.

Hannah, trust me, I think I speak for all of VT when I say your DEFINATELY not ugly.

[Luminous]

Hannah, trust me, I think I speak for all of VT when I say your DEFINATELY not ugly.

Thanks Joe, that's very nice of you to say.

[SmokyChica]

I've carved words into myself before, like when guys used to call me a slut I carved that word into my skin and stuff like that...

[Perfectly Flawed]

I used to carve things, but the carved words were never as deep as the normal cuts.

[Karkat]

It is, I ended up doing it again today...in class......in the middle of fucking maths class.....I took a compas and carved the term "fuck up" into my arm, I was forced to stop by the teacher when it started to freak people out, meaning I only got through letters F, U and C. I forgot my medication so I wad kind of drifiting and didnt realise it would freak people out.

I've been sent home for similar things when I was really young. .-. Honestly, I should've been in therapy at very least, but my mom being single and poor, that rarely happened. Plus she was extremely against meds, and only let me go on them one other time aside from this year, so

[CosmicNoodle]

I've been sent home for similar things when I was really young. .-. Honestly, I should've been in therapy at very least, but my mom being single and poor, that rarely happened. Plus she was extremely against meds, and only let me go on them one other time aside from this year, so

It was so upsetting and embarasing, the looks on peopls faces as they realise how fucked up there class mate is, I just left and hid in a bathroom stall. I did tell my friend about my self hard problems today, but he didnt gve a shit, or thats what it seemed like. So I'm kinda lost.

[Karkat]

It was so upsetting and embarasing, the looks on peopls faces as they realise how fucked up there class mate is, I just left and hid in a bathroom stall. I did tell my friend about my self hard problems today, but he didnt gve a shit, or thats what it seemed like. So I'm kinda lost.

Aww :(

Yeah, I remember how that goes. I try to appear relatively sane to people unless I have a reason not to. Which, of course, means their eyes pop out of their head when they realize what is actually going on. :P They're always like "You seem so well-adjusted." Really? I don't feel well adjusted.

This also means that no one really knows how to help me when I have problems, so a lot of times, they just stop talking to me for a while.

[Broken Toy]

It was so upsetting and embarasing, the looks on peopls faces as they realise how fucked up there class mate is, I just left and hid in a bathroom stall. I did tell my friend about my self hard problems today, but he didnt gve a shit, or thats what it seemed like. So I'm kinda lost.

Not giving a shit is a great thing. My friend knows (like 9 people know, im shit at hiding them, hence why i never touch my wrist now) and she told her boyfriend who is also my friend and i was worried and he was like 'im not bothered its ok' so i said thanks and rugby tackled him

When I'm cutting oiften I cave words, for instance I have the term "fuck up" carved into my leg and I've never heard of anyone else doing this, does anyone else cut words into themselves.....OK after writing out what I did I kind of realised how twisted that is....geez...

P.s. I cant multi quote over 2 pages on my phone, sorry!!

There's nothing wrong with being twisted, its not good to carve words but hopefully you're on the road to recovery and you just need to restart the engine. Being twisted is great though, its not secret im a psycho and ive been told im crazy

Posts merged. Next time, please use the 'edit' or 'multiquote' button. ~Hannah

[CosmicNoodle]

Aww :(

Yeah, I remember how that goes. I try to appear relatively sane to people unless I have a reason not to. Which, of course, means their eyes pop out of their head when they realize what is actually going on. :P They're always like "You seem so well-adjusted." Really? I don't feel well adjusted.

This also means that no one really knows how to help me when I have problems, so a lot of times, they just stop talking to me for a while.

True dat, people are always surprised, however today I feel quite bad about it because it happened again, in college, and for some reason it made one of my friends curious so he tried cutting, fucking stupid thing of him to do, he did it out of curipusity? What the actual fuck? However he just described it as extremely painful and unlplesant so I don't think he'll do it again, but OK was sure to bitch slap him and shout at him first. Made me feel horrible that I ended up making so done hurt themselves.

Not giving a shit is a great thing. My friend knows (like 9 people know, im shit at hiding them, hence why i never touch my wrist now) and she told her boyfriend who is also my friend and i was worried and he was like 'im not bothered its ok' so i said thanks and rugby tackled him

He, I suppose its good, but it just makes me feel like people don't give a shit about me, and that makes me want to do it more, kind of a cycle.
I don't bother hiding them anymore, apart from around my family, but when I'm in college or about the town I happily have my sleeves rolled up, I don't care who sees. So long as its not my family. At this point I'm almost proud of them, weird thing to ALMOST be proud, but I somehow am, but at times it does embarased me a little.

[CosmicNoodle]

An unfortunate update, today when cutting (I say that as if it's a normal thing.....), and for the first time ever, I stared using razors...and it scared me....cutting is so much easier when you use something so sharp. It almost makes it too easy....it's scarey

[Karkat]

True dat, people are always surprised, however today I feel quite bad about it because it happened again, in college, and for some reason it made one of my friends curious so he tried cutting, fucking stupid thing of him to do, he did it out of curipusity? What the actual fuck? However he just described it as extremely painful and unlplesant so I don't think he'll do it again, but OK was sure to bitch slap him and shout at him first. Made me feel horrible that I ended up making so done hurt themselves.


An unfortunate update, today when cutting (I say that as if it's a normal thing.....), and for the first time ever, I stared using razors...and it scared me....cutting is so much easier when you use something so sharp. It almost makes it too easy....it's scarey

:/ That's unfortunate. Hopefully he won't do it again.

Aww. Yeah, I've avoided razors as much as I can. (As easy as it would be to break one of my cheapo little used ones I use on my legs) I'm afraid I'll actually start cutting. I mean, having mildly pyromaniac tendencies, so it's bad enough when I start burning (not to mention that I always give myself bad burns. Sometimes they get infected.)

I don't know, I'm just really self-destructive, and I don't know why.

[CosmicNoodle]

:/ That's unfortunate. Hopefully he won't do it again.

Aww. Yeah, I've avoided razors as much as I can. (As easy as it would be to break one of my cheapo little used ones I use on my legs) I'm afraid I'll actually start cutting. I mean, having mildly pyromaniac tendencies, so it's bad enough when I start burning (not to mention that I always give myself bad burns. Sometimes they get infected.)

I don't know, I'm just really self-destructive, and I don't know why.

It is interesting, to think that million s upon millions of years of mental programming can all be derpstrpyed in a few years, we are capable of taking that massive part of our brain, the part forged millions of years ago, that says "DONT HURT YOURSELF, BAD" and just switch it off.

[Karkat]

It is interesting, to think that million s upon millions of years of mental programming can all be derpstrpyed in a few years, we are capable of taking that massive part of our brain, the part forged millions of years ago, that says "DONT HURT YOURSELF, BAD" and just switch it off.

It's because of the hierarchy of needs! When we aren't in survival mode, and we need to be taken care of emotionally, and it's not met, I guess we tell ourselves we don't need happiness/fulfillment, because it's not as high a priority? I don't know, seems doubtful, however, I'd say that's probably the reason we no longer feel such an URGENT need to protect ourselves. (Would we self-harm if we were running away from a serial killer? Doubtful.)

This makes me curious now.

[CosmicNoodle]

It's because of the hierarchy of needs! When we aren't in survival mode, and we need to be taken care of emotionally, and it's not met, I guess we tell ourselves we don't need happiness/fulfillment, because it's not as high a priority? I don't know, seems doubtful, however, I'd say that's probably the reason we no longer feel such an URGENT need to protect ourselves. (Would we self-harm if we were running away from a serial killer? Doubtful.)

This makes me curious now.
I often put myself in that scenario, but I always wonder if I'd actually run, or just Kay back and await my fate. With the way my life is I think I'd just sit and wait for him to get me :/
Curiosity! One of the most fantastic thing in the world! Provided you have curiosity on your side nothing can stand in your way, we have curiosity to thank for everything g around us, without it we'd still be sitting in caves. (As you can tell, I love when people are curious :P)

[CharlieHorse]

I wouldn't be able to. It would be a constant reminder. I like to get it all out and forget about it, and words wouldn't let me forget that easily. I stopped cutting a long time ago, but mental self harm is more fun.

[Karkat]

I often put myself in that scenario, but I always wonder if I'd actually run, or just Kay back and await my fate. With the way my life is I think I'd just sit and wait for him to get me :/
Curiosity! One of the most fantastic thing in the world! Provided you have curiosity on your side nothing can stand in your way, we have curiosity to thank for everything g around us, without it we'd still be sitting in caves. (As you can tell, I love when people are curious :P)

I still think I'd run- for one thing, serial killers can be pretty effed up, and I don't really want to know what his M.O would involve... Maybe that's just from a life of watching too much Criminal Minds :P That show taught me to be afraid of the words "Modus operandi" like nothing else, I tell ya. :lol: (Speaking of curiosity, this is one place I'd rather not have an active imagination... I've read up on Jeffrey Dahmer. No thank you.)

Yeah! Exactly. I've always tried to keep my sense of curiosity.

[CosmicNoodle]

I still think I'd run- for one thing, serial killers can be pretty effed up, and I don't really want to know what his M.O would involve... Maybe that's just from a life of watching too much Criminal Minds :P That show taught me to be afraid of the words "Modus operandi" like nothing else, I tell ya. :lol: (Speaking of curiosity, this is one place I'd rather not have an active imagination... I've read up on Jeffrey Dahmer. No thank you.)

Yeah! Exactly. I've always tried to keep my sense of curiosity.

Ahh, good all' Jeff, commonly known as the Milwaukee Cannibal, I read up on him some months ago, I actually found it facinating, I'm one of those twisted fucks who enjoys finding the crime scene pictures with all the half eated body parts and severed heads. Im weird like that :)

[Karkat]

Ahh, good all' Jeff, commonly known as the Milwaukee Cannibal, I read up on him some months ago, I actually found it facinating, I'm one of those twisted fucks who enjoys finding the crime scene pictures with all the half eated body parts and severed heads. Im weird like that :)

Having OCD (Obsessive violent thoughts), temper issues (self-explanatory), and slight psychotic/sociopathic tendencies [SLIGHT] (Also self-explanatory), along with a real fascination with anatomy/death/what have you (self-explanatory), and some amount of emotional distance due to all those gosh durn crime dramas (o-oh), I just try to not dwell on psychopathy and killers. :)

I'm probably the least likely to be a killer/serial killer though- back to the OCD, I get very anxious about these thoughts, and about the possibility, and in general I value human life, and get upset by violence. (Sometimes to the point of becoming violently enraged? I don't question it, because I have way too huge a capacity for remorse to really hurt anyone. Which is interesting, because I'd probably be a sociopath otherwise...)

Crazy how humans work. I've always wondered how much compassion/sympathy/understanding we should feel for killers, or how much significance those sorts of feelings would have in the first place... In my understanding, while still human, when you're like that, it's like you're a different species.

I mean, they can't/don't comprehend those feelings to begin with, in theory, what is the use of showing those feelings to them? This isn't like schizoid-type behavior or the difference between autistic and non-autistic people... You can't have a whole lot of empathy if you've killed someone and you're relatively unremorseful about it.

How much do we really know about the minds of killers anyways? Does anyone even care enough about the people themselves to figure out why a person does that?

Bleh. I actually spend a lot of time thinking about THIS, because I find that only unintelligent people assume something based on emotions only. As much as homicide is disgusting for the most part (at least in my mind), it doesn't change the fact that there is an abnormal state of mind behind this. People aren't just killers unless something is wrong with them mentally. It's weird how people place "good" and "bad" in such high regard when it's really a lot more complicated than that.

Anyways, this is starting to get really highbrow and off-topic. :P I doubt I'm even making any sense anymore.

[xXoblivionXx]

once when i first started cutting, i had "help me" carved on my forearm.. kind of ironic, don't you think

[CosmicNoodle]

once when i first started cutting, i had "help me" carved on my forearm.. kind of ironic, don't you think


The helps there, you just have to ask for it.

[xXoblivionXx]

The helps there, you just have to ask for it.

that's the tough part, asking for help

[Mynick]

An unfortunate update, today when cutting (I say that as if it's a normal thing.....), and for the first time ever, I stared using razors...and it scared me....cutting is so much easier when you use something so sharp. It almost makes it too easy....it's scarey

Plus you don't feel the pain right away, it is scary indeed.


As for the topic, i write fat and die...

[CosmicNoodle]

Plus you don't feel the pain right away, it is scary indeed.


As for the topic, i write fat and die...

And the pain doesnt linger as much, it's a much more precise pain. More targeted.

(By the way, havent seen you for a while, good to see you around)

[thatgothgirluknow]

ive herd of allot of people i know doing it ive carved broken in my arm a couple times and worthless on my leg

Hannah, trust me, I think I speak for all of VT when I say your DEFINATELY not ugly.

i think u are very pretty hannah

[Ambrosia]

When I was younger and had first started cutting I would carve words into my shoulders and legs. I went through a phase where I was hanging out with a girl who cut herself too but she did it for attention. She would cut things like "Marilyn Manson" into her skin and random crap just so she could show people. So I cut a heart. I quickly realize that was stupid and stopped hanging out with her. I still have the faint scar of "Ugly" in my shoulder from when I was 14. It was a phase I quickly graduated from.

[Seafood]

When I was younger and had first started cutting I would carve words into my shoulders and legs. I went through a phase where I was hanging out with a girl who cut herself too but she did it for attention. She would cut things like "Marilyn Manson" into her skin and random crap just so she could show people. So I cut a heart. I quickly realize that was stupid and stopped hanging out with her. I still have the faint scar of "Ugly" in my shoulder from when I was 14. It was a phase I quickly graduated from.

That girl you were hanging out with sounds like a pretty unstable person to carve Marilyn Manson into her skin so she could use it as a trophy.

I still have a scar on my wrist that says 'End'. I dont really regret it either.

[Miserabilia]

I know alot of people do it... However when I cut I'm not clear enough mentally to even write anything... It's just getting it over with and getting that rush, I couldn't cut a word unless I'd be really focussed on it which I'm not.
I've done a lot of fucked up things I don't want really describe though so ye

[Ambrosia]

That girl you were hanging out with sounds like a pretty unstable person to carve Marilyn Manson into her skin so she could use it as a trophy.

I still have a scar on my wrist that says 'End'. I dont really regret it either.

She was extremely unstable. Shortly after our friendship ended she made a fake Hit List and got taken out of school. I hope she got past whatever was troubling her. I've never been a fan of people who want everyone to know they purposely harm themselves. Always has made me feel weird.

[Seafood]

She was extremely unstable. Shortly after our friendship ended she made a fake Hit List and got taken out of school. I hope she got past whatever was troubling her. I've never been a fan of people who want everyone to know they purposely harm themselves. Always has made me feel weird.

I sorta did that, like, told most of my friends. I only wanted to tell my best friend but she turned me down and was very distant afterward. So I told my other friend and he bullied me about. Same thing happens with like, 5 more people, and I was only asking for help.

[RazorTourniquet]

I carved NUMB into my right thigh a month ago. It may seem stupid but it means a lot to me.It is there to remind me of who I am. I also have FAT on my right arm, although it's much smaller, again to remind me of what I should never become. Carving words doesn't make you a poser regardless what people say. I don't do it to show off. I do it for myself. Haha I made it sound as if cutting words into your skin is healthy. It is not.

[CosmicNoodle]

I sorta did that, like, told most of my friends. I only wanted to tell my best friend but she turned me down and was very distant afterward. So I told my other friend and he bullied me about. Same thing happens with like, 5 more people, and I was only asking for help.

Wow, thats aweful! Shows how good they where as friends. Your not still hanging with them are you?

[Seafood]

Wow, thats aweful! Shows how good they where as friends. Your not still hanging with them are you?

I really don't have anywhere else to go. I sorta do i guess.

The first girl I told also self harms and is depressed. She doesn't think she can help me cause she cant help herself. I just think she needs time. She still looks out for me though.

She might just need time. To figure herself out you know? She's very troubled.

[ThatClumsyPianist]

Haven't started carving words into my arms or legs. I've started crosshatching on my arm, though.

[gothy]

only once.

[Desuetude]

I still have LIAR carved into my thigh from a couple years ago. I did it wrong the first time so I still have a faint second one too.

It's not uncommon to write words so don't think you're the only one. Yes it's pretty fucked up but when is self harming itself not fucked up?

[numbness]

Yeah i used to but not so much anymore...mainly crosses

[romes3]

I don't carve words but I used to carve designs. I like pretty things, so if I have scars I like them to look perfect and pretty. I stopped because it go to hard to make excuses for how I got them. I know it sounds really messed up...

[queenofcontrariety]

"Am I Pretty Yet?" It never really scarred (thank god), I mean when I was little people thought I was a doll, as I grew up I phased out of the pretty phase and I still get told about how pretty I was, like I don't think I'm all that bad... but who the hell knows. This forced path to perfection my mother forced me on drives me to insanity, I guess I just wanted an answer

[SarahGilbertius]

My sis has carved "I am a victim." on her arm...

[wonderland]

I've cut a few words into my skin like ugly, fuck, liar and dead. None of them have really scarred though since they were not very deep, they've just gone a pale white and are covered up by other scars over time.

[RakshaMalayka]

I'd do words on my thigh or stomach.
People would call me ugly, slut, etc and it'd find its way there as is begin believing it too.

[justkeepswimming]

when i cut it was more commonly a word i was carving in my arm/leg to do with what was upsetting me at the time. i have carved names, initials, song titles i have also carved the word "why" and "sorry" many times.

[Damon16b]

yeah I used too, even after 1 year and 2 months I still have a scar saying 'worthless' on my leg

[amgb]

I do carve words I've carved 5 words so far and one of them is 'fly' and I don't even remember or understand why I did that one

[DarkHorse4eva]

i know that my girlfriend wrote the name of her girlfriend at that moment on her arm

[nearwales]

When I started I carved words into myself (arms/stomach/legs) but after a while I just cut lines because it was quicker. I also had a habit of getting drunk and covering myself in offensive writing in black marker pen, and in college would just cover paper in what I wanted to write on myself but I hadn't heard of anyone else doing this until today. I don't think it is that weird - I saw the choice between writing words and cutting symbols/words as the same choice burning myself or cutting myself, sometimes I just wanted to hurt with words.

[NatashaWolf]

I used to. This will sound weird, but whenever I saw a razor blade, I used to hear these whispers, almost like the wind blowing in my ear, and it wouldn't go away so when I got home I would take my blade and carve the word 'HUSH' into my thigh.

[Rayquaza]

FAT and DIE.

I was pretty unhappy with my body image. I still am, but I would have left it as a constant reminder. They healed up after some time, and i'm glad they did. All it did was make issues worse. Never again.

[Abhorrence]

When I self-harmed a lot I did. The last time I carved words was about six months ago. They're still fairly visible scars and they say "hell" "die" "death" "hate" "c**t". The word die has been on my body a lot of times, several times on my thighs and once or twice on my left arm.

[losingNemo]

On my hipbone I carved the word "Hi" and drew a smiley face..by accident.

[ImagineRepublicCity]

OP is banned :locked: