Scared and not knowing what to do.

[Dalcourt]

Tonight I feel like my whole life is going downhill again and I'm scared as shit.
I really tried to have a fresh start. We moved to this new place and I'm at this new school away from my Dad's drug-addict and criminal friends...away from my drug-addict and criminal friends. Dad had his rehab programme...and he tried to work on his anger issues. I try to fit in at school and have a normal life.

But I feel I get worse everyday.
Dad started to pick up drinking more again...started to get increasingly violent again, I don't really complain.
I picked up drinking more, too cuz all my new classmates seem to drink so much. I got more and more depressed, I'm bipolar so I guess I'm in a depression again...but still I mess up so much.
My best friend I have here wants more than I can give her as I'm not sexually attracted to her...
I could stay at her when my dad gets abusive...but as we started to get awkward with each other now I feel this isn't possible anymore.
I took up self harming again, tonight.
I feel like everything is crumbling down.

I mean I was so deep down already living in the streets for days and taking all kinds of drugs just to get away.My life was really bad, it's so hard to think about it and I am so scared I'll end up there again. When I think about the way I lived last year, my life is so much better now. But I feel like I'm losing all again.
I'm so scared...and I have no idea what to do now.

[Warrior]

Hang in there, just listen to some chief keef it might cheer you up. O BLOCK BANG BANG. Seriously though just think of the funniest stuff you can itll help.

[Leprous]

Hey there, look, please don't drink and do drugs. We are all there for you. As for your friend, maybe talk to her about it, or find someone else to talk to. Don't give up, it's all going to get better, I'm sure of it.

[Dalcourt]

Hey there, look, please don't drink and do drugs. We are all there for you. As for your friend, maybe talk to her about it, or find someone else to talk to. Don't give up, it's all going to get better, I'm sure of it.

Thanks...and yeah I really hope it gets better again. I spent the night sleeping outside and I don't want this to be regular again.

[CosmicNoodle]

Thanks...and yeah I really hope it gets better again. I spent the night sleeping outside and I don't want this to be regular again.

Have you considered gentley talking to your dad, when hes not doing to bad, about what he's starting to do again?
Have you talked to this friend of yours? I'm sure she'd want to help you if she could.