Urge to SH again, thanks to my stupid mouth.

[synthetic ghost]

I have nowhere else to go with this. I'm sorry.

Not too long ago, my friend - E - and I had this conversation:

E: Are you even for real? XD
R: No. I'm a fragment of your imagination.
E: Then why are you still here? xD
R: Because every time I've tried to kill myself, I failed.

E knows that I feel the way I do and I've spoken "like" this to her in person before. Only, this time she just . . . Ignored me. I asked her if she had gone silent because of what I said and she said yes. I now feel like an even shittier person and the urge to SH is strong. I don't know what to do.

I know I'm the wrong for what I said but, like, I don't know. I just didn't think and now I'm overthinking and...

Yeah. I'm sorry.

[Karkat]

She probably just feels bad because she doesn't know what to say.

Honestly, I can relate a lot to that, and my friends always get kind of uneasy with me when I say things like that, but it's because they just don't know how to help me.

[synthetic ghost]

She probably just feels bad because she doesn't know what to say.

Honestly, I can relate a lot to that, and my friends always get kind of uneasy with me when I say things like that, but it's because they just don't know how to help me.

E is going through the whole SH process too, so she understands. I just don't know why she reacted in this way considering she never has before and it's really got to me.

[Karkat]

E is going through the whole SH process too, so she understands. I just don't know why she reacted in this way considering she never has before and it's really got to me.

Maybe she was just going through a low point as well. You never know.

If it becomes a problem in the future, you might want to talk to her about it, because while that kind of conversation sucks to have, it's better than eating yourself up inside.

[synthetic ghost]

Maybe she was just going through a low point as well. You never know.

If it becomes a problem in the future, you might want to talk to her about it, because while that kind of conversation sucks to have, it's better than eating yourself up inside.

That's true. Thanks, a lot.

[Karkat]

That's true. Thanks, a lot.

You're welcome. I hope everything works out. :)

[CosmicNoodle]

She probably just feels bad because she doesn't know what to say.

Honestly, I can relate a lot to that, and my friends always get kind of uneasy with me when I say things like that, but it's because they just don't know how to help me.

A lot of my friends do that as well, they don't understand what makes a human do that, they simply can't fathom it, it makes them upset, nervous, uncmfortable. So they just shut down and go quiet....although on a lighter note its a good way to shut someone up....

But your friend understands to a level because of her own sh issues, she just doesnt know what to say

[Karkat]

A lot of my friends do that as well, they don't understand what makes a human do that, they simply can't fathom it, it makes them upset, nervous, uncmfortable. So they just shut down and go quiet....although on a lighter note its a good way to shut someone up....

But your friend understands to a level because of her own sh issues, she just doesnt know what to say

Most of my friends get that way about everything, because 90% of them are fairly straight-laced and not "disturbed". They have their problems, but they're fairly normal teen/adult problems.

They always avoid confiding in me because they're afraid their issues will sound ridiculous compared to mine, which makes me sad. :(

[CosmicNoodle]

Most of my friends get that way about everything, because 90% of them are fairly straight-laced and not "disturbed". They have their problems, but they're fairly normal teen/adult problems.

They always avoid confiding in me because they're afraid their issues will sound ridiculous compared to mine, which makes me sad. :(

Be careful, we can't afford to hyjack this thread. Sorry mods :P

Perhaps try talking to your friend about the issues? Maybe if she gets her feelings and problems out in the open with someone who understands things will be easier to figure out?