School Blues

[Pyrotheseus]

Hi guys, my name is James. I'm currently an 11th grader in a sci-tech program. I love working with computers, and building (and destroying ;D) things. My plan was to go to college and major in computer science, and minor in electrical engineering. I love both fields, the problem is school. Most of my life i've been an A or high B student, but last year I kinda lost it and ended up with like a C average, with a D in a few classes. I told myself the whole summer and promised my parents and the sci-tech coordinator that I would do better this year. This is the 4th week, and for the past couple days i've felt like I did last year, I spent almost every class zoning out and wishing I was anywhere else. The only 2 classes I didn't feel like that in were AP Computer Science, and Production Systems. I can't stand doing my english or latin work, and trig,physics, and world are all boring. Also, on the occassion that I don't understand a concept, especially in Trig and Physics, I feel really stupid and want to just go home. The thing is, when I study the stuff on my own at home, I generally get it and do well. I was home sick a few days ago, and I got a ton of stuff done, and had an amazing day (despite the sickness :P). I don't know why, but just the though of having to sit through a whole school day makes it hard to sleep. If I don't do well this year, I won't be able to go to college probably. Plus, would I even enjoy/do well in college? I don't want to spend all that time and money and have it be wasted. I've heard of a lot of businesses looking more for experience and know how for programming and security, than a college degree. I'm really lost and feeling awful. I'm not sure who to talk to, my parents will just tell me to suck it up, get the work done, and get over it. It just feels so wrong sitting in those classrooms.

[JamesSuperBoy]

I guess we all feel like that - but maybe you can talk with the school maybe you could study more on your own - I think college will be a whole lot better.

[Ticagirl]

Man I'm the same way. There's times where I get unmotivated. When I go to college, I want to major in art and become a concept artist. At my old school, it was very small, and would not provide the opportunities for my goal. So I switched schools. This was very hard, considering I went from a close and small private school, to a giant public school, where I knew 0 people. It sucked the first few months. I was always thinking about how I didn't like anyone here and how it wasn't as fun as my old school. I began to become unmotivated. But then I remembered the reason why I switched. I didn't switch to make friends, even though that's important, but I switched because it was the best decision for my future. Focus on your goals. Remind yourself of what you want to do and who you want to be. Then try your hardest to work hard. I know this probably doesn't help, but I just felt like sharing my experience with you.

[Pyrotheseus]

Thanks, I'm trying. When I start feeling like that I keep reminding myself it's only temporary.