RazorTourniquet
September 12th, 2014, 03:59 PM
Hello everyone!
I am not sure if I should place this thread here but I am hopeless. I am a girl in love with her friend who has known her for two years. And guess what. She has a boyfriend. Not sure if she is straight but anyway...
We used to act like we were lovers. All of the dirty jokes, holding hands, hugging way to often and being just so damn close. A several moths ago her boyfriend caught us making out. We were both drunk, so we hid behind the club and did it. he popped out of nowhere and the moment he saw us he broke down. He was flipping angry, he called her names, pushed her, almost hit her, we couldn't calm him down. Since then she is being cold as ice towards me. She hardly ever hugs me goodbye. And even when she does... It's not the same. I feel bad for almost ruining their relationship but I couldn't hold myself back. I fixed the deed I done and apologized both to him and her. I just want to see her happy. Now when we go back to school I will have to sit next to her and this is just driving me crazy. I can't even look at her.
Yet I can't get her out of my mind. Even drugs don't help anymore. What should I do?
I am not sure if I should place this thread here but I am hopeless. I am a girl in love with her friend who has known her for two years. And guess what. She has a boyfriend. Not sure if she is straight but anyway...
We used to act like we were lovers. All of the dirty jokes, holding hands, hugging way to often and being just so damn close. A several moths ago her boyfriend caught us making out. We were both drunk, so we hid behind the club and did it. he popped out of nowhere and the moment he saw us he broke down. He was flipping angry, he called her names, pushed her, almost hit her, we couldn't calm him down. Since then she is being cold as ice towards me. She hardly ever hugs me goodbye. And even when she does... It's not the same. I feel bad for almost ruining their relationship but I couldn't hold myself back. I fixed the deed I done and apologized both to him and her. I just want to see her happy. Now when we go back to school I will have to sit next to her and this is just driving me crazy. I can't even look at her.
Yet I can't get her out of my mind. Even drugs don't help anymore. What should I do?