I....don't know

[Dying Ember]

Hi,
I'm new, I joined this website because I find it difficult to speak to people face to face about things. so I thought I should join a website (it was also recommended) to kind of help I guess.
So, anyway. I started self harming about a year ago and recently asked for help (today actually). I don't know why because I don't see how its going to change anything. The world I live in is a crap place and nobody can change that, can they? But I did it because I felt it was unfair to dump everything on my two friends and it would be difficult for them as well because they were the only people who knew about anything that was going on.
There are only two things that keep me going. Cutting is the only one that will always be there.
I guess im just asking for someone to not judge me and accept that I am what I am.

[Harley Quinn]

Only you can change the world you live in and how you perceive it, that is true. The world is a shit place, everyone knows that, but it's how you deal with that and how you make use of the opportunities that it gives you that matter. However, by talking to someone who is trained to help you, can help more than you think. There are always other options, rather than self harm. People will accept you for you who you are, you just have to give them a chance. I mean, it is hard for people who don't know what you're going through to understand and that may seem as if they're judging you, and you have to realise they're trying their best with it. Give them time. If you're open with your problems, they can be easier to face with someone else, also.

[Dying Ember]

Thank you for your reply. I understand what you are saying, I just can't seem to stop what I'm feeling and what's in my mind. The thing is, I don't believe that people accept me. I am never good enough, never will be. I somehow always manage to handle things wrong, upset people and what I'm trying to say never comes out right. I just don't know where I'm at. I don't understand why I have to stay in a place that I don't want to. At the end of the day, its me who is the problem

[Seafood]

I understand what you're feeling. I started to self harm 3-4 months ago and everyone I've told has either turned me down or didn't care. Like, I dunno, worthlessness.

If you wanna talk about anything I'm here. :)

[Dying Ember]

Seafood,

Thank you. I'm also here for you if you just want to talk about things :)
Have you told anyone who is trained to help? I'm not sure if it will work or not for you but you never know I guess...
Just remember, you are not worthless. Its just the people in this world who make you feel like that. Its doesn't mean you are. I know you're not.

Take care x

[Prejudiceisignorance]

I just can't seem to stop what I'm feeling and what's in my mind. The thing is, I don't believe that people accept me. I am never good enough, never will be. I somehow always manage to handle things wrong, upset people and what I'm trying to say never comes out right. I just don't know where I'm at. I don't understand why I have to stay in a place that I don't want to. At the end of the day, its me who is the problem

We will accept you for whoever the hell you are! You aren't the problem anyone around you who doesn't want to help or doesn't accept you for yourself is the problem. People are different and, quite frankly, anyone who doesn't accept and aknowledge that is a d*#@.

[Seafood]

Seafood,

Thank you. I'm also here for you if you just want to talk about things :)
Have you told anyone who is trained to help? I'm not sure if it will work or not for you but you never know I guess...
Just remember, you are not worthless. Its just the people in this world who make you feel like that. Its doesn't mean you are. I know you're not.

Take care x

I have been talking to a psychologist, it doesn't help really. I only feel better when I'm around the people I care about. And if they want me around, which they don't.

Thank you for that message. That really made my day, thank you. You are amazing. Thanks. :)

[Dying Ember]

Thank you, that really does mean a lot
And if you ever want to speak about anything to me then you're welcome to :)

[Dying Ember]

I have been talking to a psychologist, it doesn't help really. I only feel better when I'm around the people I care about. And if they want me around, which they don't.

Thank you for that message. That really made my day, thank you. You are amazing. Thanks. :)

you're welcome, you are one amazing person too x

[Seafood]

Thank you.

Just tell the ones you trust the most. I ended up telling more than enough about my SH and now I don't really have anyone.

And when you have the urge to cut, just call or text someone. Ask them how their day was, take your mind off things. It see!s to work for me. Don't ever give up, ever.

[Dying Ember]

Thank you.

Just tell the ones you trust the most. I ended up telling more than enough about my SH and now I don't really have anyone.

And when you have the urge to cut, just call or text someone. Ask them how their day was, take your mind off things. It see!s to work for me. Don't ever give up, ever.

yeah, I've told my two friends and no one else. I'm not sure if it was a good idea or not (one of them didn't react very well to it) but I can't exactly take it back. We've had numerous fights and arguments about it... I think she's accepted that its not a problem that's just going to go away now though.
I've tried different ways of trying to take my mind of things (piano, music, phone etc.) but it doesn't really work. I've told the school nurse about it though so maybe that might start to help..

[Seafood]

yeah, I've told my two friends and no one else. I'm not sure if it was a good idea or not (one of them didn't react very well to it) but I can't exactly take it back. We've had numerous fights and arguments about it... I think she's accepted that its not a problem that's just going to go away now though.
I've tried different ways of trying to take my mind of things (piano, music, phone etc.) but it doesn't really work. I've told the school nurse about it though so maybe that might start to help..

If you want to talk just PM me. Maybe talking to a guy halfway around the world will help.:)

[Dying Ember]

If you want to talk just PM me. Maybe talking to a guy halfway around the world will help.:)

I'd love to but I don't think I can yet.. :/
Don't you have to have 100 posts before you can PM..?

[Seafood]

I'd love to but I don't think I can yet.. :/
Don't you have to have 100 posts before you can PM..?

Shit, I dunno. I'll try and get my posts up today and PM you when I can OK?

[Croconaw]

You have to have one hundred posts. You can be whoever you want. We're not going to judge you for being yourself.

[Dying Ember]

Shit, I dunno. I'll try and get my posts up today and PM you when I can OK?

ok, thanks :) you're being so nice
I'll have to get mine up as well (im only at 12 or something)

[Dying Ember]

You have to have one hundred posts. You can be whoever you want. We're not going to judge you for being yourself.

thank you :)

[Seafood]

ok, thanks :) you're being so nice
I'll have to get mine up as well (im only at 12 or something)

I'm only nice for amazing people. :)

[Dying Ember]

I'm only nice for amazing people. :)

oh man, im not amazing at all, you're the amazing one :)

[Seafood]

oh man, im not amazing at all, you're the amazing one :)

Nah, you're way better than me. If you knew what I've done.

[Dying Ember]

Nah, you're way better than me. If you knew what I've done.

then again, you don't know what I've done either

[Dying Ember]

Nah, you're way better than me. If you knew what I've done.

Then again, you don't know what I've done either

[Seafood]

Then again, you don't know what I've done either

Nope. You are way more amazing, either way.

[Dying Ember]

Nope. You are way more amazing, either way.

Woah, stop stop stop! The word amazing does not even acquaint itself with me
You might not know how amazing you are but I do, okay?

[Seafood]

Woah, stop stop stop! The word amazing does not even acquaint itself with me
You might not know how amazing you are but I do, okay?

See, thats where you have it wrong. You don't know how amazing, beautiful and probably talented you are as a person. But I do.

[Dying Ember]

See, thats where you have it wrong. You don't know how amazing, beautiful and probably talented you are as a person. But I do.

nah, im none of those things. You're mixing me up with you

[Seafood]

nah, im none of those things. You're mixing me up with you

Doubt it. ;)