end of the road

[Seemyheart]

I have been 184ish days self harm free...woo.....but lately, I just want to ruin that. I want to feel it again. I want to be in control of something, anything, again! I sit at school, anxious, because I feel the need to. I feel the urge to just lose all self restraint.
I dont know who to turn to anymore. I feel so alone, and I feel so sad.

Why cant I be "normal" and be one of those perfect people who dont self harm...

[Deiform]

Try to take your mind off of it. You have made it 184 days without self harm! i know the feeling of just wanting to feel it again. Maybe go for a walk or try breathing excersizes. Breathe in for 5 seconds, hold for 5 seconds, release for 5 seconds. That helps me a lot. You can do it. You can go for 200 days and beyond. i believe in you. You just need to believe in yourself.

[OldmanKitty]

Heya, Been there done it myself. If you're finding it difficult to keep the streak going then it's gonna be difficult for a while. The best thing to do is get a mindset and try your best to stay positive. Thinking positive generates Positivity. It's true, it seems silly but it really works.
And it's all the same that you have to trust what people say, But i've been clean since april now, and i get the feelings. Even if you slip. If you can make the distance between slips great then it slowly gets easier and easier.

[Gottaloveaginger14]

No one is normal and trust me cutting isnt worth it last week I cut for the first time in almost 6 months and I cant stop and I hate myself for it

[Broken Toy]

I have been 184ish days self harm free...woo.....but lately, I just want to ruin that. I want to feel it again. I want to be in control of something, anything, again! I sit at school, anxious, because I feel the need to. I feel the urge to just lose all self restraint.
I dont know who to turn to anymore. I feel so alone, and I feel so sad.

Why cant I be "normal" and be one of those perfect people who dont self harm...

I think deep down you know its not worth it. You say you want control but you're never in control