Very confused...

[BADdies]

Hi, before I start I want to apologise for mistakes coz English is not my main language...

I'm a sixteen year old girl, I went through tough months this year but I survived somehow...anyway...last 2 years (maybe more) ago I noticed I became attracted to the girls. Not every girl, just
specifically ones (short hair, not too skinny nor fat, sport's type..) once when my bff and I had sleepover I saw her naked, we were cuddling and we kissed few times (not on the lips) of course I got turned on but when I tried to kiss her on the lips and touch her she said If I ever try to do it again she will slap me...I felt so embarrassed because I thought I was straight til then. Then I watched a movie where was a scene of lesbian sex and of course I got turned on again...I like boys and when I finally think like it was just a phase and I'm straight I see the most beautiful girl on the internet/in the city/at school...last few months I dream almost every night a les sex...
Okay let's face it, I'm probably bi :) But the problem is I can't tell that to my other bff...I tried several times but she said "It's normal for girls to be attracted to some of them, it doesn't make you gay or bi" she just doesn't believe me :/ I told to my two male bffs and they totally support me but It's killing me when I have to act in front of her like I don't have tiny crush on her

Lol sorry for long post plus there's actually nothing to answer on that

[Zachary G]

Your friend sounds like she is in some sort of denial about her own sexuality and by preventing you from expressing yourself to her, she has some control over her own dounts and fears.

[mollyjellybelly]

I'm in kinda the same situation. Got three friends that I'm really close to and we've done the little experimenting at sleepovers stuff but I'm ready to go farther and I'm not sure they are so I haven't done anything. Don't want to risk losing a really great friend like that! At least it sounds like she's accepting that you want to be bi. And maybe it's just going to take some time. If someone says or does something unexpected most people naturally pull back right away. So she may just need time to think about how your relationship could or might be different. Or she may never be interested but at least it sounds like she'll still be friends with you.

[Cangirl]

Ive heard that people who are really against the whole gay/les/bi thing have a lot of same sex feelings but are scared to admit it. Sounds like she kinda fits the same boat. She shouldn't be mad at you for telling her though and maybe she'l be worried or scared other people will assume she is to if you tell. Not right but maybe explains why she's not ok with you coming out to her.