suicidal and helplines

[thatgothgirluknow]

i feel like crap im so tired of feeling like this im supposed to be the strong one but all i can think of is the words out of my grandmas lips why dont u just go cut urself again and she left the blades in my room to use i hurt really bad i called to talk to my councelar not expecting her to be there but instead i was conected to a help line and i hung up scared but the thoughts scared me more and i can tell there coming back the thoughts where i can see myself dieing and i alost wish for it yet i know i shouldnt and that i cant do it i feel bad for talking to them i feel like a burden and like i worthless people say that im not but i still feel that i am i have so many scares and all i want to do is make more i hate that im so weak my anxiety is so bad and i just cant take it

[Broken Toy]

have you tried helplines before because they are always someone to talk to. if you havent i suggest you give them a try so you know there is someone there when you need them

[Blood]

National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255.

You should try calling this helpine and talking to someone. There's no need to be scared, these people are here to help you and talk you through things.