Smiling, but...

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Hey!
So, I have come across a big issue. Roughly this time last year, my ex bf sexually assaulted me, threatening me with my life if I told. Of course, I'm not stupid and I told the police. He's been taken care of. I have vowed to live every day better than the last. But... the issue remains. I am extremely.... I don't know, numb, I guess... From what happened. I mean, I don't know how to feel. Happy he's gone? Worthless? Scared? Depressed? I don't know. To top it off, old habits like suicidal thoughts and self harm havs been wanting to peak through, and I am scared of giving in... what do I do?

[xXoblivionXx]

hey :)

I'm really glad you did tell the police. But like you said, the emotional stuff still remains THat numb feeling. Have you every talked to a therapist? they would really be able to help you get through these thoughts and feels that you have. We don't want them to go unheard and let that lead to self harm or even suicide. I'm always here to talk or just listen if you want. VT actually has an abuse forum, http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/forumdisplay.php?f=105, you might be able to find some people who are going or have gone through a similar situation that you have.