Does it ever get better?

[Celtics]

So I had one of the worst days of my life this week, not going to explain it. I will just say every single thing that could go wrong went wrong and worse. Things that I thought never could go wrong went wrong.... I've had suicidal thoughts now everyday for a while now. People say it gets better, but its just getting worse. I pray to God every morning asking and sometimes yelling at him why won't he do anything. My faith is pretty much gone, my life is gone, and I'm about to drop out of school since that is a living hell.

[micheal951]

It is so cliché, but it really does get better, a couple of years ago I fell into a black hole of depression I thought I would never ever get out of, I used to self harm, and once tried to end it all. Worst thing I ever did, surviving I saw the after affects of what it would have been like if I was successful, my parents split up, most of my family was in different states of shock and so on. Trust me, suicide is NOT the answer, nor is it the easy way out either. It will be hard, very hard, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you just have to make it there. The way I managed to scrape my way there was by pretending I was happy, everyday I would just get myself out of bed no matter how I felt and would go into the bathroom, look into the mirror and force a smile, then tell myself "I AM happy." It sounds stupid, but it eventually made me happy internally. I also found speaking to family helped, well certain family members at least.
And all I can say is speak to someone, no matter who it is, family, a doctor, a friend...Anyone, a problem/worry shared is a worry halved. You are worth a billion of what you think you are worth, never give up, never give in. Work, fight, prosper! xx

[xXoblivionXx]

So I had one of the worst days of my life this week, not going to explain it. I will just say every single thing that could go wrong went wrong and worse. Things that I thought never could go wrong went wrong.... I've had suicidal thoughts now everyday for a while now. People say it gets better, but its just getting worse. I pray to God every morning asking and sometimes yelling at him why won't he do anything. My faith is pretty much gone, my life is gone, and I'm about to drop out of school since that is a living hell.

you remind me of what I was like a few years back. trying to grab a hold of something even though everything is falling apart, and your losing hope, fast. But the thing is it does get better,only IF you try hard to make things better, keep praying, keep having hope. Dropping out of school may make things harder in the long run. Trying to find a job might be hard. but thinking of the future can be scary sometimes. so let's just concentrate on the now. VT is a great place to vent, get advice, meet people who are going through the same thing, and even get help. Just don't give up, please. we are here for you.

[plebble]

Yes, life does get better everyone says. I however am still waiting, but I'm not giving up. I hope you don't give up either.

[Broken Toy]

Well you have to analyse your problems. You're stuck in a circle of depression. What causes another cycle. Break that problem to break the cycle

[allisonmyers]

yea it does you will get to a point looking back saying that wasn't as bad

[dame]

You're just going through a shitty time right now, & you feel like things won't get better. Give it some time, things do get better. Many people have been in your position, it's not uncommon. Time heals all wounds. I hope you soon begin to feel better!

[FairPlay137]

You're just reacting to bad memories and those memories will go away along with your suicidal thoughts eventually. Just smile and don't give up!

[LoveLessOne]

my god i wish there was somthin i could do to help. the only thing i can say is thatif you feel so bad, just smile even for just a sec. look in a mitror and do the most ridiculous smile possible. and if you need to talk im always here to talk. even if you wanna yell at someone ill let you yell at me

[ViolinPro]

Just know that you're not alone. Really, you're not alone. Sometimes even when we feel our best and life goes smoothly, a spiraling chain of misfortunes just come out of nowhere and then you just can't take it anymore. Try to drink more water, calm yourself down and remember that soooo many, so many people go through this, including me.
Sometimes it seems impossible to stand up again but remember, no matter HOW difficult it is, fall down 100, stand up 101 times.
I live by that phrase.

[DeadEyes]

Sometimes it does get better, sometimes it don't. You never know, the way life goes.