my thoughts scare me

[thatgothgirluknow]

so the other night i started to get suicidal again but not like normaly where i just think about dieing but dont think about actually doing it but instead i saw myself actualy doing it then i cut and i really hoped it would kill me but ive never actualy cut and hoped to die i almost purposely cut a vein now i feel allot better of course but the thought really scared me because i never thought about doing it for real before i taked with my councelar but it made things worse cause now my grandmas upset with me because i cut and wants to send me to a mental hospital

[darkangel91]

Don't worry... just hang in there... stupid advice I know, but I've never been that bad... when you get really depressed, think about this: imagine someday being better, normal, happy, with a loving spouse, and children. Imagine telling your children someday about that time, long ago, when you were depressed, and how grateful they'll be when they realize they could never have been born, but you controlled yourself and got help.

Stupid advice, I know, but it's all I could come up with. :)

[Broken Toy]

your grandma doesn't sounds upset, she sounds worried. she doesn't sound angry and wants you to get help. that's showing she cares for you. next time you feel that way try and remember all the people who care about you and everyone who's there for you. think about them over and over until you feel better

[plebble]

We're here for you x