but... i was so happy

[MrVanity]

i don't even have the energy to make this post.
so arrow meme
>one friend dead
>other in a psych ward
>im so tired
>haven't slept in 4 days
> I was so happy
>those last 4 days were so productive
>why

[Kalashnikov95]

You're happy after all this? Maybe it's your brain flooding in serotonin as sort of a natural barrier against the shock of traumatic experiences. I'm not a doctor/chemist so I can't offer you a better explanation than that. Look on the bright side, we both have the same name :)

[Leprous]

i don't even have the energy to make this post.
so arrow meme
>one friend dead
>other in a psych ward
>im so tired
>haven't slept in 4 days
> I was so happy
>those last 4 days were so productive
>why

I know this is a later reply, but lemme get some things clear here. I know how you feel. First of all, you have to get some sleep, you're going trough a tough time and there is still allot of hope for you. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to let me know, we're all there for you buddy, every single one of us is.