EdivRoquin
August 10th, 2014, 10:23 PM
So yeah, I don't if this is the place to post this (If not, move it) and also I don't know where to start.
Well, I'm bisexual, but no one knows. I hadn't had problems with it until now, I've had crushes on guys before but I had a solution, I made them my friends, but I have problems with this one.
I can't talk to him, I don't know why, my mind never works when I'm around him.
I thought it was over when vacations started, but no, I saw him last monday and the "feelings" came back, It's a mix of angry and sadness. In some way, he was the reason because I started dieting and making exercise, not because I wanted to get his attention, I wanted to get rid of my thoughts, I started doing exercise in my house first and when I saw the results I thougt "why not?" and I started dieting and then I joined a gym (I've burned 15 kilos of fat so far).
The friday I decided to stop this and I thought a psychologist would help, but the best of my city (specialized in gay, lesbians and bisexual teens, whom also gives free appointments to some of us) iS his mom, whom also has her office in the house.
So, she isn't an option, I'm not telling her I have a crush on her son, but the other doctors are very expensive, so I'm stuck.
I thinking about doing more exercise like Ju Jitsu or marcial arts, but doing it the first time it worked for 2 weeks, it's just temporal, as I said, I'm stuck, I don't know what to do.
Also, I know that what I feel for him is strongest than what I felt for any other girl or boy so far, because with my other crushes I've had sexual dreams and my dreams are like movies, it's like if I were a camera on my dreams (stupid, I know),
but when he's in my dreams it changes, I see everything from my point of view, and guess, there is no sexual interaction, just a simple kiss in my cheek. Usually when I wake up after dreaming this I feel tired, angry and sad all the day.
Have you experienced this before?
Please, help me.
Well, I'm bisexual, but no one knows. I hadn't had problems with it until now, I've had crushes on guys before but I had a solution, I made them my friends, but I have problems with this one.
I can't talk to him, I don't know why, my mind never works when I'm around him.
I thought it was over when vacations started, but no, I saw him last monday and the "feelings" came back, It's a mix of angry and sadness. In some way, he was the reason because I started dieting and making exercise, not because I wanted to get his attention, I wanted to get rid of my thoughts, I started doing exercise in my house first and when I saw the results I thougt "why not?" and I started dieting and then I joined a gym (I've burned 15 kilos of fat so far).
The friday I decided to stop this and I thought a psychologist would help, but the best of my city (specialized in gay, lesbians and bisexual teens, whom also gives free appointments to some of us) iS his mom, whom also has her office in the house.
So, she isn't an option, I'm not telling her I have a crush on her son, but the other doctors are very expensive, so I'm stuck.
I thinking about doing more exercise like Ju Jitsu or marcial arts, but doing it the first time it worked for 2 weeks, it's just temporal, as I said, I'm stuck, I don't know what to do.
Also, I know that what I feel for him is strongest than what I felt for any other girl or boy so far, because with my other crushes I've had sexual dreams and my dreams are like movies, it's like if I were a camera on my dreams (stupid, I know),
but when he's in my dreams it changes, I see everything from my point of view, and guess, there is no sexual interaction, just a simple kiss in my cheek. Usually when I wake up after dreaming this I feel tired, angry and sad all the day.
Have you experienced this before?
Please, help me.