GregM
August 8th, 2014, 02:45 PM
Well, for the past year I've had incredibly bad self-esteem.
It started out at the beginning of the year, when I realized that I was actually very overweight (borderline 200 pounds). I ignored it at first, until I started looking in the mirror and consistently worrying about how fat I looked. In the winter, I went on a "diet" which later triggered my anorexia. (Can I call it that? It wasn't as major as most cases but it was unhealthy.)
I started losing weight really quickly, and was at 180 a month later. At first I started thinking of myself as normal, but then I did a BMI check and found out that I was still overweight. So I went back to not eating a healthy amount and dropped down to 169, which is what I'm at now. I did a BMI check and I'm at my ideal weight, but I still feel fat and useless. There are days when I don't feel like eating, and I don't know what to do.
I still look in the mirror and see a fat kid, even though some people tell me that I'm at my ideal weight. I don't know what to do. Every time I try to eat something too filling, I get nausea and only eat a 1/4 of it or so. What do I do? :(
It started out at the beginning of the year, when I realized that I was actually very overweight (borderline 200 pounds). I ignored it at first, until I started looking in the mirror and consistently worrying about how fat I looked. In the winter, I went on a "diet" which later triggered my anorexia. (Can I call it that? It wasn't as major as most cases but it was unhealthy.)
I started losing weight really quickly, and was at 180 a month later. At first I started thinking of myself as normal, but then I did a BMI check and found out that I was still overweight. So I went back to not eating a healthy amount and dropped down to 169, which is what I'm at now. I did a BMI check and I'm at my ideal weight, but I still feel fat and useless. There are days when I don't feel like eating, and I don't know what to do.
I still look in the mirror and see a fat kid, even though some people tell me that I'm at my ideal weight. I don't know what to do. Every time I try to eat something too filling, I get nausea and only eat a 1/4 of it or so. What do I do? :(