View Full Version : What do you think about your scars?
xXoblivionXx
August 8th, 2014, 10:06 AM
I kind of like mine, but at the same time I hate them. I hate how they were self inflicted because I couldn't handle my emotions and just needed an escape but I like them because they remind me of what ie been through. They kind of give me hope
CosmicNoodle
August 8th, 2014, 10:22 AM
I think nothing of them at all, they've just become part of my daily life now
Harley Quinn
August 8th, 2014, 10:28 AM
I used to be very very self concious about them all, to the point where I'd do anything to hide them and everything. But, after awhile I just accepted that they're just apart of my body and that's it. I mean, it took me a hell of a long time to finally actually fully accept that I had scars but, I'm not ashamed of them. I like to think of them sometimes as reminders that shit isn't so bad, I did what I did but I came through to the other side. It's also quite relaxing, for me personally anyway, when I look at them. I don't hate that they're there.
budapest
August 8th, 2014, 12:12 PM
the ones on my arms don't bother me because i can literally only see them in a certain light and at a certain angle and most of them you can't even see anymore but the ones on my legs are deep as hell and apart from the ones that are obviously visible now (fresh cuts or w/e) they're extremely noticeable and they look disgusting so i guess i hate them?? and the recent ones make me paranoid wearing skirts and stuff because they're so visible and stuff
CharlieHorse
August 8th, 2014, 12:53 PM
Luckily my scars were from a thin sharp blade and the cuts were very fine, so they healed without much scarring. The idea of having the scars scared the hell out of me after I did it.
It's like a permanent reminder of how broken you are. I wouldn't be able to live with them.
Love.Hate
August 8th, 2014, 03:44 PM
I am embarrassed by mine, I don't cover them up any more because this is me and people need to accept that. I just wish I hadn't of damaged my body so badly and hope it doesn't impact on my future career. They show me what i've overcome in my life so i don't hate them anymore :)
Goatzbro
August 8th, 2014, 07:39 PM
I have them all up and down my arms and everyone in my school (especially the middle schoolers, its 6-12) looks at them. It's very depressing for me :/
Also where I live it is too hot in the summer months to cover them so I don't
Blood
August 8th, 2014, 08:20 PM
My scars are there, and they'll most likely be there for a while, so I've just come to accept it. I have and still do use products to get them to be less noticeable, but that's because I just don't like answering questions about them. I use to hate them and be obsessive over getting them to fade but now it's just like whatever, it is what it is.
Desuetude
August 9th, 2014, 07:20 PM
I love mine. As I've said many a time I think they're the most beautiful part of my body. Saying that however I feel uncomfortable as fuck if other people see them. I'm happy with them being on my body (which they probably will be for a long time to come seeing as my scars don't seem to fade), just very self conscious of other people seeing them.
xALBx
August 11th, 2014, 12:41 AM
I thought I knew how I felt about them until today: which was the first time i wore a two piece bathing suit out in public. Maybe it was because the full "wrath" of my damage was exposed but i felt so naked. I've been able to wear shorts to school and not feel ashamed or anything but today was different. It was like i was looking at them for the first time. I felt scared. I forced myself not to panic. I felt like everyone would think I was crazy. Come to think of it; the last time I wore shorts my dad saw my scars and asked me flat out if i was crazy. It didn't affect me then, but maybe seeing my body through his eyes rattled me a bit. I feel embarrassed all over again. How do you stop? How do you love yourself even though you did those acts out of hate? I don't want to be defined by them.
xXl0sth0peXx
August 11th, 2014, 08:52 AM
For me, I hate them 100%. There's no love because of what I've been through or anything. It's just 100% pure hate for them.
JustNathan
August 11th, 2014, 01:29 PM
I have some scars on my upper arms. I cut where short sleeve shirt sleeves cover them up. I don't cut anymore, so the scars are there, no more are going to be there.
I kinda like my scars, but my mom doesn't. When she and my dad found out they began finding ways to remove scars.
So yeah. :p I kinda do like them, but they might be gone soon.
XxChinChinB0ss69xX
August 11th, 2014, 05:07 PM
My scars are all over my thighs and well.. I find them beautiful. They are not something I enjoy (even the thought of) showing public though.
Dark Unicorn
August 16th, 2014, 11:48 AM
I hide mine.
Babs
August 16th, 2014, 02:51 PM
Don't like them. I wish I could think of them as a badge of honor or as a reminder that I have recovered like some people do, but no matter how hard I try I can't get into that mindset.
I just don't like them.
Karkat
August 16th, 2014, 02:55 PM
It's an ugly reminder of how I've failed myself in the past. I hate them.
Rayquaza
August 16th, 2014, 04:46 PM
I hate them so much. Everytime I look at them, the feelings of how weak I was and my past flood back into my head. People notice them at clubs and parties and they stare at them, and others make jokes about it, presuming it's my cat because I apparently clearly don't look like the kind of person that would self-injure. I wish they would just go. I've tried using moisturisers and bio-oil but of course, the only remedy is time, resulting in a semi-permanent mark on my skin.
Stars_
August 16th, 2014, 06:52 PM
Well... I don't really think about them. I used to all the time, even putting makeup over them to hide them (which was ridiculous, since I only cut my thighs and don't wear shorts)... I used to be embarrassed. But now, I don't care.
Dark_Desires
August 18th, 2014, 08:06 AM
Part of me Hates them and would never want anyone to see but other times i like them and want more its a Weird love hate relationship as a metaphor.
Yugen
August 26th, 2014, 01:36 PM
They're a part of me and I accept them.
Broken Toy
August 26th, 2014, 02:40 PM
i hate them because it brings everything back. ive got a really bad memory but when i see them i know exactly what i was thinking about, why i was angry/depressed. then i end up making new scars
Croconaw
August 26th, 2014, 03:51 PM
They define me and who I am
Seemyheart
August 26th, 2014, 11:33 PM
On my bad days, like today...they are just a reminder of how weak I was. How I just caved into the need to cut...and that's a little depressing because I want to be strong enough.
Perfectly Flawed
August 27th, 2014, 01:48 AM
I'm about 3 years clean now, and at this point I don't even think about them. They just are part of me at this point.
Mynick
August 27th, 2014, 11:50 AM
They're part of me, i want more, i love them and i hate them.
OldmanKitty
August 29th, 2014, 07:20 PM
My scars, Hmm.
Lots of different things, They show the struggles and the difficulties that you've been through and what extent i would go to, to try and cope. I have over 200 and I am always worried that people are going to be like when they see them, however they are often indifferent to them. I mean people call them battle scars, and others to perhaps make themselves feel better about them. But realistically they are what they are, and that is a sign that at one point you were down on your luck and you did what you thought you had to do to get by, Which in no way is negative or weak, but it does mark you for the rest of your life and that's something you have to live with when you harm yourself, And that's one thing i wish i'd thought of more when i cut. But forearm scars are what i have and now i have to live with explaining them to anyone i want to get intimate or close to and that it can cause problems in friendships sometimes, however it can also bring people closer which has happened to me too.
So in all i'm a bit indifferent, They are scars, they are what i've been through, and they aint going anywhere.
Fiction
September 1st, 2014, 07:41 PM
I hate mine but then I love them. (I just sat there trying to think of a better way to explain it and there really isn't one).
I find it strange and upsetting that the decisions I made 4 years ago still effect me to this day, but then I find it comforting to know i've been so low and made it through and been happy again. I think if they weren't there I wouldn't believe the hell i've been through. As cliche as it sounds, it shows me I survived and that I can do anything.
1_21Guns
September 5th, 2014, 09:14 PM
I used to feel quite sad about them, but now I'm not overly fussed about them. Most of mine have faded to a point they can only be seen if you know where to look, so I guess that makes it easier.
Cisel
September 5th, 2014, 10:46 PM
The only ones I have are from when I gave in after a long time of not cutting. It reminds me of why I did it and I still feel the regret of the moment. Still, seeing them reminds me not to go there again.
FullyAlive
September 6th, 2014, 05:33 PM
I used to be sad when they started to fade now I would give anything for them to disappear, I find them awkward I hate them and I'm embarrassed by them.
jmatthews
September 8th, 2014, 05:35 PM
I don't hide my scars, and some of them are very recent, yet shallow, and the seriously deep old ones are still there. i don't see why i need to hide them, by doing so and being ashamed of them will only make me relapse more (also I have very strong stands on mental health stigma... which is why im quote open about my condition)
CosmicNoodle
September 11th, 2014, 01:47 PM
I used to be proud of them in a way, but recently, after the incident, I've become very self concious about them and want to cover them up.
Seafood
September 20th, 2014, 12:10 AM
When I look at them it makes me think about how strong I am.
Dying Ember
September 20th, 2014, 01:30 PM
The ones in places that people can't see I don't particularly have any feelings for...they're just kind of there that's all
Ambrosia
September 28th, 2014, 11:37 PM
They remind me of what I have been through and what I have lived through. There are far too many of them for me to remember each others story (100s of scars), but I can clearly remember some of the times I inflicted the deepest ones. I partially thank them for being the reason I got refused by the Military so I could meet the man who I'd spend the rest of my life with. I usually forget they are there, though. Until I get the urge to cut again. Sometimes I think they start to itch purposely so I don't forget they're there. It's been a little over 11 months since I last cut after 10 years of cutting, the scars are still as prominent as ever.
Triceratops
September 29th, 2014, 02:20 AM
I hadn't cut in years so that was enough time for my cuts to heal, so whatever was left I covered up with a lot of good quality make-up so you wouldn't be able to notice they were there. I cut again over the weekend after the years of not doing it and I'm absolutely terrified that I have to go through all that waiting until they heal again, and if they're going to leave scars.
Miserabilia
September 29th, 2014, 01:31 PM
I could never like them.Once they've been red and irritated for a month, they seem to fade; then, months later, months without sh, I look at them and they're still there. Each and every single one of them. My entire arms and legs full of them. They just blend more with the skin.
It's like they just come back to haunt and annoy.
Armyboydevon99
September 29th, 2014, 02:00 PM
every time i look at mine i just want to cut again so i can feel the pain and enjoy it
allisonmyers
September 29th, 2014, 02:06 PM
scars show the shit you have been thru but it didn't kill u
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